well hello 2012

day 119:
well hello 2012!

this is gonna be a quickie but…
i wanted to at least say merry 2012 to you fabulous peeps out there in the blogosphere!

me & ange -- my bff of 20 years! we have rang in many a new year & it was awesome celebrating with her last night!
(my sexypants hunny -- brian. he's a hottie huh?)

i partied like a rock star last night & let it be re-established that i cannot hang.
i dunno why i even try?
heh.
(at least my shoes were kickin’ ass & takin’ names last night!)

and yes i felt like ass today & i made less than stellar food choices due to being a wee bit hungover – but i tracked every filthy morsel and i made myself workout tonight after an enormous internal battle over should i or shouldn’t i…
for the record – i always should!
and i am glad i did!

i am welcoming 2012 with open arms & an open mind & just happy to be where i am & that life is becoming increasingly better & better by the day!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
*** if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ the rest of my new year’s eve photos & more --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.15 & 16 weeks

day 110:
merry xmas eve eve blogosphere!

so i had a blast last night!

good peeps & tons of laughs – i mean that’s what it’s all about.
and ya know how i swore up & down that i wouldn’t be drinking?
yeah epic fail on that.
BUT…
in my defense – it was at brian’s urging that i relax a little & have a drink if i wanted – so i did.
and i wanted a few!

i can be quite extreme – i am just an all or nothing kind of gal. but he is right – one night out with friends – something i rarely do – is not going to derail all my hard work.
BUT…
it took every bit of me not to raid the fridge when i got home last night & i was famished ALL day today.
pffffft!

but let’s get to my weigh-in.
i had a bad feeling about my weigh-in – not that i have had a bad week – i have stuck to my usual diet & exercising daily – but we went out to eat twice this week & then last night’s adventure.
so imagine my surprise when i lost .4lbs!
not a ginormous amount but a loss nonetheless & i will gladly take it!

this time of year i am content to maintain – so a loss is fan-fuckin-tabulous!

and i got this beauty today...
my 16 week charm!
i have been a weight watcher member & attending my meetings/weigh-in's faithfully for 16 weeks!
w00ts!

and why the big deal about 16 weeks?
well studies show that sticking it out for 16 weeks leads to further commitment & long-time success!
now that's what i'm talking about!

i haven't set any number related goals since i rejoined weight watchers 16 weeks ago EXCEPT to at least stick it out for 16 weeks & not miss a weigh-in and/or meeting no matter what!
i am super proud to say i did just that!

well that's all i got kiddos – i gotta get hot & start wrapping all my gifts!
yeah; ALL my gifts!
yikes!

oh & don’t forget to link up:

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as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops! jump/hop/skip/whatever around & meet new peeps with kickass blogs! leave them a comment to say hi & that ya found them via the no more muffin top hop!
that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

welcoming the light...

day 109:
merry winter solstice blogdom!
did ya know that today signifies the reversal of longer nights & shorter days?
so i ask you…
are you welcoming the light or saying goodbye to the darkness?

i am saying hello to the light!
i am *light*er after all… heh!

in all seriousness – i have given the darkness too much significance in my life – it is time to focus on the light!
so hello light – how the fuck are ya?

okay this is where i gotta show off my new goodies – so hang on…

i wanna take a second to thank jennifer from finding my way in texas -- i won her very first giveaway a couple of weeks back & i received my winnings in the mail yesterday & oh good golly are they amazing.
my daughter lovesssss the hat – i mean it’s a ladybug & absolutely beautifully handmade – what is not to love?
the notebook cover (thanks for the bigger one jenn), necklace & headband are just too freakin’ cute & i am so happy to have won them – you rock balls jennifer!
please take a sec to check out her blog & etsy shop – where you can purchase any of these goodies among others!

and as if one cool package wasn’t enough – i got another from one of my oldest & dearest friends unexpectedly. inside it was this…
20+ years later & she still gets me – even from across the country!
it is perfect & i love it!
thanks marie xxoo!

well kiddos – i got things to do, peeps to see & places to go – oddly enough.
i am such a homebody so going out (tonight is our yule celebration & then we are venturing out for a bit) even for a little while is a HUGE deal for me – and yeah – i am super stoked!
merry yule & i will say adios with the early posting of…

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i was gonna give the hop the weekend off with xmas & all – instead i decided to extend it from today until monday @ midnight.
as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops! jump/hop/skip/whatever around & meet new peeps with kickass blogs! leave them a comment to say hi & that ya found them via the no more muffin top hop!
that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

tanning booth confessions vol.3

day: 42
ni hao bloggy-san!
so i just got home from the gym & whilst tanning my buns in the booth tonight i thought to myself…
“it’s been awhile since ya wrote a…”

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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!

confession:
i had way too much fun last night out with my friends @ an show that featured motley crue, vanhanlen, dio, & godsmack tribute bands. and you know i was makin’ devil horns with my fingers – as it was so obviously the thing to do. i have always been a rockin’ chick! heh!

confession:
speaking of rockin’ – i so rocked that cute little dress last night & can you believe i didn’t take a pic. yeah me – the photo queen who documents everything. i honestly didn’t think of it… i was too busy makin’ devil horns!

( i do have this gem of a photo – taken today to document that i survived this nite out wayyyyy better than last week. i am actually upright & combed my hair unlike last weekend… heh!)

confession:
i was so not feeling the 30 day shred today and had no desire to even do it until i randomly tried on a pair of juinor size 13 jeans & they fit. my ass was all over the 30 day shred after that & i went to the gym tonight! as my weight watcher leader tricia say: it’s the best & worst moments that motivate us the most. true dat!

confession:
the past six weeks of hard work is starting to show & people are starting to take notice – even those who see me daily. i have had so many compliments in the past few days it’s unreal. and i won’t lie – i am totally l♥vin’ it! it only motivates me to keep on truckin’!

confession:
sex is a bazillion times better when you feel sexier.

confession:
i had taco bell on the way home last night. it used to be a tradition for my bestie & i back in the day – so we had to. i won’t even lie – that mexican pizza kicked fuckin’ ass & was worth every one of it’s 14 points. yeah i went way over in points yesterday but fuck it – i had a great time drinking & eating the extras – i tracked it – it's not something i do regularly & life goes on!

confession:
i am the worst lurker -- i am wicked behind on reading other peeps blogs! sorry; i am usually all over that!

but did i mention i got into a size junior 13 jeans today?!?!


so there ya have it – no shame in my game!

what do ya need to get off your ta-ta’s?!?!
spill it…
then cross your eyes, make the sign of the devil horns, and drink a double hail bloody mary and all is forgiven…

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

the power of girlfriends -- meet ciao mama

day: 35
bloggerhood!

so last monday i was graciously asked to write a post about women and our friendships for ms. daffy @ batcrap crazy in conjuction with friends you l♥ve -- a month long blog celebrating & empowering women and other women closest to us.

friends you l♥ve hosts a blog hop every monday where you select a friend from the blogosphere to guest post at your place and come on back and link up to the blog hop! all blog hop participants (guest posters included) are eligible to win prizes from eyedews!
(this is just one of many really cool events they have going on this entire month!)


okay phew – with all that being said, you guys know i am all about spreading the bloggy l♥ve & what better way than to pass the torch on. without a thought i asked ciao mama from the fabulous blog mommy bags to guest post and what follows is simply lovely and the perfect example of why i chose her…
she is real, raw, hysterical, sincere, stylish, and if we weren’t on opposite ends of this country – i can guarantee we would be besties and having some mad misadventures of our own!
without further adieu … ms. mommy bags herself!


It was set up to be just another week until I received an email from Cyn over at Misadventures of a Chunky Goddess one of my favorite all time blogs. Besides being a kick ass gal the girl is just friggin funny and has quickly become a really great bloggy friend.
Ms. Cyn asked me to do a guest post and I was what the f*** are you serious? Like…. I am about to gag ova here…I was so stoked and so honored the first thing I did was freak out…What would I post…how about if I sucked donkey balls and would have to hide my pitiful self from the bloggy world forever? I snapped out of it and I decided I would just be me and just write the way I write. The post was supposed to be about women and friendships this is all in conjunction with friends you love - a month long blog/site that celebrates & empowers women through discussing our bonds with other women. Again, thank you so much for the honor Cyn.

Quality over quantity any day. I used to be vice versa just a few years ago. I felt the more “friends” I had around me the better. I felt I needed a bunch of people around me in order to feel accepted. It was so high school it was ridiculous. As you grow up and get older you realize what the meaning of true friendship is. I discovered who I thought were friends of mine {and ours} were just really “acquaintances” at best. I discovered that women I thought were sisters were actually just fakes – I know you’re like…… this is supposed to be about great friendships between women - I am getting to the point I swear.

I saw the true colors of these friends when the shit hit the fan – when my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer I saw the light. I saw women who told me they would always be there for me and I thought were best friends run for the hills. No phone calls to see how my mom was doing, no support calls and just no calls. I will always remember the hurt I felt, here I am going through the most painful thing ever and there was no one around. In a way it destroyed the little trust I had for women. My first emotion was to go after them with fists flying but after calming down I decided they were just not worth the trouble and jail time. Through all this dark “muck” I was going through at the time quite a few bright lights of hope flashed through and showed me what true friendship is supposed to be. I received phone calls from friends that I had lost contact with because of all the BS of hanging out with certain members of the “group”. These women checked on me and my well-being and they called to see if they could do anything for me and my fam. They were there when my mom passed away. They showed up at the wake they showed up when I placed mom in her resting place. They were there when I cried myself to sleep for months straight and refused to leave the house because I felt so lost. They were there when I picked up the phone every day to call my mom and realized she was no longer here. They took me out, they helped me out and finally I started to feel better. One of my friends helped me build the crib and get the nursery ready when my hubby was too busy at work and I too prego to work the drill. These friends gave me a baby shower and sent many welcomes when baby was born. These friends have been around when I just needed a hug a glass of wine and a shoulder to cry on. These to me are true friends, friends that are in your life that make you feel special and loved and that you matter. There is only a handful in my life right now because I choose it to be that way. I would rather have a handful of really good jelly beans in a jar than a jar of so so jelly beans.
I love all of mine to pieces and you know who you are! I have learned allot during my 41 years and the one thing I did learn is that truly good friends are hard to find…Show them some love and let them know how special they are. Peace!



told ya see is fabulous… please stop by her blog -- mommy bags -- and give her a shout out!
she rocks!
thanks mb!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

weigh-in vol.4

day: 34
my blog-schnizzles!

i have had a kind hectic weekend (i will get into that later) hence why i am just now getting around to posting my weigh-in results from yesterday’s weekly meeting.
drum roll please…
i lost 2lbs!
can you even believe it?
i was just convinced i was gonna have a gain!?!?! i am telling ya, that scale is squirrly bastard. two weeks ago i was floored by a slight gain & this week i am floored by a sa-weet loss!

(me @ the gym all happy & shit!)
wanna hear the coolest thing about all of this?
not only was i pms’n & all that jazz like a mofo…
i also ate every single one of my points. dailies, weeklies, and all of the ap’s & i earned like 60 last week.
hmmm – maybe those weight watcher folks know what they are doing afterall?
i have said it before and i will say it again: the plan works when you work the plan!
end of story!

so yeah – i was a super-happy camper! i have lost 8.6 lbs total and am only 1.4 lbs. away from hitting 5% -- w00ts!
perhaps this week? if not, definitely the next!

so last night i went out with my friends.
yes me!
to an adult establishment, with other adults, and we partook of adult beverages!

bri stayed home with skylar & i went out – a first mind you.
and before you all get in a tizzy it is not because he won’t let me (ha, as if) i just haven’t had the gumption or desire to do so in a very long time. between being a new mom (again), the depression, poor body/self-image, yadda yadda… that sorta thing wasn’t a priority to me. and it isn’t now even – but sometimes ya gotta get outta the house and run amuck!
and i did…

to be clear – we had a fuckin’ blast! we had some beers, heard a awesome band, danced a wee bit, and laughed our asses off. i needed last night!
i didn’t realize how much i have missed letting loose.
i need to let loose more often.

but i gotta tell ya – i paid the price most of today. i was so effin’ hungover that i actually uttered that eternal promise of *i am never drinking again*.
definitely a top five of all time hangover (and there have been many because i used to be the party girl extraordinaire).
it sucked gorilla balls. and what pisses me off the most about it is that i didn’t really drink all that much. i had about six beers through the course of the night which is more than i normally drink, but certainly not excessive.
this from the chick who could drink many a dude under the table back in the day…

i ultimately had to bite the bullet and run to a drugstore to get some alka-seltzer. it tastes like two day old buttcrack – but man did it work. within an hour i was eating and felt a bajillion times better.

i had to get better and fast – i wasted half the day dying (or at least wanting to) and hunter, my 17 year old eldest son, had his homecoming this evening and we had his girlfriend and her family coming over tonight for photos.
gawd bless alka-seltzer!

lessons learned: i am old, cannot hang, and always have alka seltzer on hand!

will this detour me from going out again?
nope!
plans are in the works for our next adventure… yay!
i will just drink less or stick to wine!

don’t forget to join the hop – no rules and it runs until midnight tomorrow!

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happy weekend!
spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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