tanning booth confessions vol.6

day 130:
merry weigh-in eve bloggy peeps!

so it’s been awhile & in honor of my triumphant (heh) return to the gym last night which also included a visit to the tanning booth (soooooo effin’ relaxing – oh how i have missed thee tanning booth) – i am bringing back…

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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!
(disclaimer: not all things posted will be traditional confessions – but certainly random!)

so let’s begin!

confession:
last night was the 1st time i have been to the gym since december 12th – wow! the guy at the desk had that “where the heck have you been?” look on his face – but it’s the *no judgement* zone @ planet fitness so he didn’t say mum. his face said enough…

confession:
everytime i go shopping i feel compelled to try on jeans just to make sure i am really a size 11/12. i know it sounds insane but i haven’t worn this size since the 1980s & i am having a real hard time convincing myself that this isn’t some fluke! and furthermore wearing clothes that actually fit & are not overly baggy in a vain effort to *cover* areas that i don’t want seen is completely foreign to me as well.

confession:
i ♥ tjmaxx & especially this time of year when they have AH-MAY-ZING clearance prices. i got a pair of jeans (size 11), some skinny navy blue super soft cords (size 11), two shirts (size medium) AND a dress (size medium) all for $37.00! and i didn’t want to scratch my own eyes out in the dressing room which is a MAJOR nsv (non-scale victory).
*a little head’s up – bathing suits/bikinis are already making their grand entrance into the stores*

confession:
i ate at the local (shithole) buffet yesterday. but in my defense – it is the ONLY place on the planet that my picky eating/recently sick daughter will eat (don’t ask me why – it is a mystery to us as well) & because she had basically gone SIX damn days without barely a nibble; drastic measures needed to be taken. as someone trying to eat healthy & vegan – this place is a virtual nightmare. seriously – even their veggies were cooked in GOBS of butter & the green beans had some sort of pork product (ew ew ew) in them to *flavor*. blech! i stuck with the salad bar – which was actually very nice --- lotsa fresh fruit & even some some beautiful mixed geens.

confession:
brian asked me yesterday if i was *skinny* (his word not mine) enough to marry him yet. i have written before about what a vain mofo i am & how i have come to terms with the fact that the reason we aren’t married yet & i have been dragging my feet is because i didn’t want to be a fat bride. i don’t want to look back on that day or at photos & all i can focus on is that i didn’t feel or look my best! (and please don’t send me snarky emails – i am not saying you need to be *thin* to be a beautiful bride. this is my personal preferrence & i am entitled.)

confession:
brian’s question got me to thinking – so i tried on my wedding dress & for the 1st time EVER it zipped all the way up! IT FITS!!!! and i love it! i can actually envision myself getting married…
wow!
so i guess i will be planning a wedding for real?
wow!
don’t ask when – i gotta process the fact that i can zip my dress up first!

confession:
i missed a good portion of the last hour of biggest loser (spoiler alert) tuesday night because i was snoozin’. i did see the beginning of the weigh-in’s & i did see mike get voted off the ranch (he was kinda creepy anyhow). and i know kim kinda fucked up making that bet – but i still like her – she is like me – all or nuttin’! and i like emily too – they are my faves – ironically the two peeps brought in without a partner!

confession:
i am not feeling super confident about tomorrow’s weigh-in. i might have a gain? maybe not? i certainly don’t think i lost much if anything at all. i have had a good string of pretty impressive weigh-in’s for the past month or so – i feel like i am due for a gain? it’s part of the process – everyone gains – so i am prepping myself for it. either way – i WILL be at my weigh-in/meeting & owning my shit!

confession:
i am back to wearing thongs & have officially chucked all my granny panties & brian is suddenly much nicer to me… heh. yeah my butt can fit in them again without them rolling down & making me mental! YAY! Another NSV!

confession:
i literally have been writing this post ALL FREAKIN’ DAY as my daughter has been abducted by aliens & they have replaced her with some sort of alien pod baby. seriously, i know she is just getting over being wicked sick & i love her more than life itself but W T F kid?!?! she screamed, yelled, kicked, stomped & cried on & off ALL day & if i didn’t have weigh-in tomorrow i would be downing the bottle of wine in the fridge right now!

so there ya have it – no shame in my game!

what do ya need to get off your ta-ta’s?!?!
spill it…
then cross your eyes, make the sign of the devil horns, and drink a double hail bloody mary and all is forgiven…


peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ my alien pod baby & the rest of my crazy brood --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.6

day: 47
holla blogga’s!

super stoked – had my weekly weight watcher meeting/weigh-in today & i lost 3 lbs!
*naked cartwheels bitches*
that brings me to 11.8 lbs. total lost & i surpassed my 5% (of total body weight) gonzers.
can i get a what? what?
so umm yeah, pretty freakin’ happy!
(myself & my daughter skylar @ the library today)

i had a feelin’ i was gonna have a good weigh-in – i worked out super hard this past week between the gym and the 30 day shred (details in the tab below my header) of course. and all i can say is that i effin’ l♥ve jillian michaels.
no seriously – i do!

i have never in my life worked out as hard as i am now & it proves the things she (jillian that is – i can call her jillian like i know her now that i am 12 days into her insane workout) says -- which i always thoughts were a hock of hooey & so cheesy.
it is mind over matter & if you put the effort into, you can do anything.
i have pushed myself through soreness, exhaustion, and a testy teenager who is on my last friggen nerve this week with his piss-poor know-it-all attitude (another post for another time).
but everyday i have that constant of knowing that i am going to do the 30 day shred & focus solely on me! and i may be wrong, but i just might finally be getting that workout *high* that i have read about. i think i found my exercise niche – weights/circuit training. who knew?

as i said, i am on day 12 and jumped up to level 2 yesterday.
in a word – wow.
definitely more intense & a lot of plank (in the push-up position) exercises which are just insane & oh-so-hard! by the end i look like i walked across the fuckin’ sahara desert & back!
once again i feel like i have worked muscles that have been dormant since probably 5th grade & just about everything minus maybe my left eyebrow hurts.
oddly – today did seem a little easier than yesterday.
heh.

regardless, i am not giving up -- plus can you believe that monday is the half-way point? i will be posting photos & measurements too - i am super curious what the measurements reveal.

so yeah – minus teenage drama & some soreness – i am super diggin’ life!
i caught a reflection of myself in a glass window today while out & about & for the first time in too long to remember i didn’t want to turn and run away screaming! not to toot my own horn (yeah right i am a wicked bragger from way back) but i actually liked what i saw! that is progress bitches!

just a reminder – don’t forget to link up…

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spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

lazy-ass blogger

day: 44
yo my blog-diggity’s

let me start by sayin’ that i am totally wiped tonight – so i am gonna be a lazy-ass blogger and just share some awesome-ness i scored via pintrest.
(please tell me you pin!)



i ♥ pintrest – they have everything & these are just wonderous!

ohhh & a question – anyone ever try this?
just curious…
detox: green smoothie — 1 cup baby spinach, 1 cup kale, 1 pear, 1 ½ cup of orange juice, and 1 frozen banana.

i remember reading a blog on the weight watcher site & the woman swore by it. i am not sure if this is the exact recipe she used – seems familiar – but she had it for breakfast every day & swore that it was the secret to her getting to goal & keeping the weight off.

on a small note: today makes one month solid that i have blogged daily – thus finishing my NaBloPoMo self-imposed challenged.
i have actually enjoyed the daily bloggin – oddly enough – it has kept me quite accountable.
although i cannot tell you how many nights i have dashed home like a effin’ maniac trying to blog in time. whether or not i will continue to do the daily thing? who freakin’ knows?

off to the gym i go.
i wish i could crawl into my jammies and go to bed – but i need my fix & i will be grateful i pushed myself to go after the fact!
spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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triberr

day: 38

another quickie…
just home from the gym & i am beat!

but i did want to ask what you guys think of triberr?
have you heard of it?
use it?
any thoughts?

the reason i ask is because i use it & while it can be daunting at times tweeting all your fellow tribe members posts (not required but certainly nice) – it has driven a ton of traffic on my blog.
i am starting my own tribe (bitchin’ bloggers) & looking for tribe members.
here are my semi-requirements (as we all know i am a big ‘ol softie & shit).

must be bitchin' & a blogger! no coupon/giveaway/review only blogs please -- nothing against ya -- i know you peep work your asses off -- original content and a sense of humor is a must -- you cannot be faint @ heart & scare easily by an f bomb or two -- photog's hold a special place in my heart as well -- so your own phenom photography wins you extra gold stars in my book -- and a sa-weet twitter following would be nice -- xxoo ♥cyn♥

if you tweet & would be interested – lemme know! keep in mind – i only have 7 slots @ this time to fill.
oh yeah – made it through day 3 of the 30 day shred intact. actually, i feel much better today & it did seem easier to get through. details in the tab above!


spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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i ♥ jillian michaels

day: 36
‘ello blog-o-sphere!

wowie – i feel like it’s been forever & a freakin’ day since i have sat down to just run my trap on here. this past weekend was busy & just completely got away from me. plus i fully admit that i kinda checked out in regards to a lot of the healthier habits i have been forming lately.
i didn’t make it to the gym once all weekend…
boo-hiss @ me!

no excuse either – well other than that wicked hangover i had on saturday and homecoming for my son (check out his pics here) that same night. all of which aren’t the best reasons to miss the gym all weekend.
but as much as i don’t want to admit this – my nite out kicked my ass.
(just so fuckin’ sad…)

but today i kick it back into gear.
and i have decided to kick it up a notch by doing jillian michaels 30 day shed (as well as hit the gym & continue on weight watchers).

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i will be making daily little posts in the *30 day shred* tab up yonder & i am hoping it keeps me accountable for this challenge.
and yes… i have been down this path before ealier this past summer– i believe i got to day 7 and i came up with some brilliant (at the time) reason to quit. tried it once more and quit once again for yet another brilliant (at the time) reason.

i do a lot of reading (mostly online) and most of what i have read and heard firsthand from peeps who have been on and succeeded @ the weight loss journey is that daily movement/exercise/activity (even just a 20 minute walk around the block) & portion control are the key! and i firmly believe that they go hand in hand and follow suit.
so i am concentrating on finding a way to be active every single day.
and yeah, maybe the 30 day shred is a pretty in-your-effin-face way to do it – but why do anything in your life half-assed?
i wanna be accountable and this is how i do it – by making a plan & bloggin’ my ass off about it…
heh!

and because i know peeps are curious – yes, the workout is kickass. the movements/exercises are nothing too extreme and each workout is only twenty minutes long – but it feels more intense & i sweat more than 45 minutes on the elliptical going 6.5mph.
so ummm yeah – it’s a crazy workout!
c’mon – what did ya expect from the queen of bust your nuts @ the gym – jillian michaels?
personally – i adore her!
how can you not?
amen jillian!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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weigh-in vol.4

day: 34
my blog-schnizzles!

i have had a kind hectic weekend (i will get into that later) hence why i am just now getting around to posting my weigh-in results from yesterday’s weekly meeting.
drum roll please…
i lost 2lbs!
can you even believe it?
i was just convinced i was gonna have a gain!?!?! i am telling ya, that scale is squirrly bastard. two weeks ago i was floored by a slight gain & this week i am floored by a sa-weet loss!

(me @ the gym all happy & shit!)
wanna hear the coolest thing about all of this?
not only was i pms’n & all that jazz like a mofo…
i also ate every single one of my points. dailies, weeklies, and all of the ap’s & i earned like 60 last week.
hmmm – maybe those weight watcher folks know what they are doing afterall?
i have said it before and i will say it again: the plan works when you work the plan!
end of story!

so yeah – i was a super-happy camper! i have lost 8.6 lbs total and am only 1.4 lbs. away from hitting 5% -- w00ts!
perhaps this week? if not, definitely the next!

so last night i went out with my friends.
yes me!
to an adult establishment, with other adults, and we partook of adult beverages!

bri stayed home with skylar & i went out – a first mind you.
and before you all get in a tizzy it is not because he won’t let me (ha, as if) i just haven’t had the gumption or desire to do so in a very long time. between being a new mom (again), the depression, poor body/self-image, yadda yadda… that sorta thing wasn’t a priority to me. and it isn’t now even – but sometimes ya gotta get outta the house and run amuck!
and i did…

to be clear – we had a fuckin’ blast! we had some beers, heard a awesome band, danced a wee bit, and laughed our asses off. i needed last night!
i didn’t realize how much i have missed letting loose.
i need to let loose more often.

but i gotta tell ya – i paid the price most of today. i was so effin’ hungover that i actually uttered that eternal promise of *i am never drinking again*.
definitely a top five of all time hangover (and there have been many because i used to be the party girl extraordinaire).
it sucked gorilla balls. and what pisses me off the most about it is that i didn’t really drink all that much. i had about six beers through the course of the night which is more than i normally drink, but certainly not excessive.
this from the chick who could drink many a dude under the table back in the day…

i ultimately had to bite the bullet and run to a drugstore to get some alka-seltzer. it tastes like two day old buttcrack – but man did it work. within an hour i was eating and felt a bajillion times better.

i had to get better and fast – i wasted half the day dying (or at least wanting to) and hunter, my 17 year old eldest son, had his homecoming this evening and we had his girlfriend and her family coming over tonight for photos.
gawd bless alka-seltzer!

lessons learned: i am old, cannot hang, and always have alka seltzer on hand!

will this detour me from going out again?
nope!
plans are in the works for our next adventure… yay!
i will just drink less or stick to wine!

don’t forget to join the hop – no rules and it runs until midnight tomorrow!

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happy weekend!
spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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weigh-in eve

day: 32

wat up my blogga’s?!?!?!

happy thursday – or weigh-in eve in my world.

i gotta admit that i am totally preparing myself for a gain tomorrow.
not for a lack of trying – but uncle t.o.m (auntie flo’s estranged hubby) is in town, i haven’t exactly eaten as clean as i normally would this week, and i only got to the gym 4x’s this week (well after i get there tonight of course -- and i am going -- final workout all *biggest loser* style!).

(gotta love that mindless eating…)

it’s all good in the hood – this is life and i am in this for the long haul.

i promise not to give the receptionist the stink eye tomorrow.
and i also promise to pay attention to the meeting instead of stewin’ in my own pool of pissed-off-ness!

gonna make this a quickie post – gotta get my tookus to the gym -- but before i go – here are some of the things i have found in my internet travels the past week – coolio-ness is just a mere click away!

the 21st century housewife's kitchen© -- meatless monday - roast vegetable lasagna -- this looks beyond delish!!!

everydayhealth.com -- feel-better foods: boost mood with a healthy diet -- i think we all know this to be true but some good info! i certainly feel more sluggish than i do on the weeks i eat clean!

babes rockin’ mami -- breaking up with the scale -- seems to be a trend out there!

boobies, babies & a blog -- hump day inappropriateness -- hysterical! i literally laughed out loud and had tears in my eyes – especially the convo between the father & son. snickering while i write this thinking about it… heh!

(right?!?!?! heh)

don’t forget – tomorrow – no more muffin top weekend hop link-up will be posted bright & early!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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ROCK OUT with your CROCK OUT -- vol.4

day: 30

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welcome to rock out with you crock out!!
this is my homage to my most favorite kitchen gadget ever – the blessed crock pot.
because even i can crock pot like a mofo!
i mean who can’t really??

and all of the recipes featured here will be healthy and/or weight watcher recipes – this is a weight loss blog after all.

so here it goes…

i have spent the past week looking for the perfect crock pot recipe .
and they are everywhere – balls to the walls crock pot recipes! only most aren’t what i would deem as *healthy* -- and yeah, that defeats the friggen purpose!
and the healthy ones i have seen done a bajillion times before…
yawn!

so i decided to take a favorite healthy recipe of mine (okay it’s goya’s as it right on their packaging – but i did tweak it a bit!) – 16 bean soup!

i will let the recipe do the talkin’ (i know you are shocked that i let anyone or anything get a word in edgewise huh?)
without further adieu…

16 bean crock pot soup
ingredients
12 serving(s) goya 16 bean soup mix, 1 package
1 medium onion(s), chopped
2 stalk(s) (large) celery, chopped
1 large carrot(s), chopped
1 leaf/leaves bay leaf
2 clove(s) (medium) garlic clove(s), chopped
2 tsp olive oil
6 serving(s) jennie-o turkey store extra lean italian sausage, chopped
1 tsp table salt, to taste
1 tsp black pepper, to taste

instructions
soak & drain beans according to package.
brown turkey sausage in oil with chopped garlic until crispy. drain and set aside.
in crock pot combine beans & remaining ingredients (minus turkey sausage) with 6 cups of a water. cook on low for 6 - 8 hours or until beans are tender.
40 - 60 minutes before serving add browned turkey sausage. let soup stand for 15 -20 minutes before serving.
can be served over brown rice for additional pointsplus values. serving size = 1 cup. pointsplus® value: 6
this recipe is easy, yummy, & super healthy – perfect!
easily made into a vegan dish too – only omit the sausage – the beans make their own stock.

my kiddos blew us off in lieu of burgers and ice cream @ friendly’s – can you imagine? who could pass up this dish?
but bri & i loved it and i had mine with ½ cup brown rice bringing my pointsplus value to 9.

this was my convo between my 2 year old picky-butt daughter:
me: skylar wanna try this soup mommy made?
skylar: i put the leaves in! (she is a bay leaf pro btw!)
me: i know and you did fabulously – but how about some bean sou…
skylar: (running away , screaming with arms flailing) nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
(it was really that long of a *no*)

in unrelated news : not to brag (ha, yeah right!) but i have been kickin’ butt @ the gym this week! i think i am slowly becoming one of those peeps who not only likes exercise but looks forward to it?
*jaw drop*
and not to sound silly but last night when i was *werkin owt* i felt strong.
strong? is that the word i wanna use?
i dunno but that word best conveys how i felt.
i felt strong and tall – like my posture was better than it has been in eons.

i feel the old me in there somewhere – and i have missed that crazy bitch.
(no really, she is crazy as hell!)
she is clawing her way out and lemme tell ya – she is pretty fuckin’ miffed that i have let myself get this outta shape. i think she is just waiting for the right moment to jump me and kick my ass…
and i cannot wait!
i need my ass kicked!
spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

another quickie

day: 28

bloggywood!

gonna be a quickie (i know ya like it when i spew and screw) but i just gotta say this – because maybe getting it off my chest will make me feel better?

i gave up dexter tonight for the gym.

yeah me.

the only time i could get out was 8ish and i knew there was no way i would make it home for the 9pm premier. so i sucked it up like a big girl and put the gym ahead of my tv junkie-ness.
so no spoilers.
i will catch it tomorrow night. and actually it works out for the best – bri gets up wicked early (2am) to be to work for 3am on mondays so he hits the hay before most grandmothers do.
so we can watch it together as we are both humongous fans.

my workout was good despite draggin’ ass tonight.
(see me and my ass draggin…)
i admit it – i ate like shit (not clean and a lot of processed crap) today and i felt it tonight at the gym. tired, sluggish, and so outta my zone.
add some effin’ pms to the mix and i am one miserable biznotch.
i swear i would knife your ass for a mini chocolate chip - just sayin’!
but i feel good that i went.
even 45 *not-feeling-it* minutes on the elliptical is better than blowing the gym off entirely – which i seriously debated.
so yay for me.
(my gym @ night whilst drving away and snappin’ a pic with my shitty cell)

tomorrow is another day & i will make it a much better one.

so totally off-topic but i have to admit that i am totally cheating on facebook with twitter.
i didn’t get the whole twitter fascination – but now i am hooked.
l♥ve me some twitter!

what about ya’ll – what social networking are you diggin’?
(how else can i stalk ya if i dunno?)


spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

shout outs

day: 27

blog-o-rama!!!

today i just wanna give some much deserved shout outs…
so here goes…

shout out to october 1st – i l♥ve this month and halloweenie! so many cool things happen in october!

shout out to kem @ chronicles of a sweet tooth and her awesome missoni for target giveaway that i was a lucky bitch enough to win!
you rock, your blog rocks, and my winnings rock – ‘nuff said!
check her out and show her the bloggy l♥ve!

(don’t be too-too jealous – aw fuck it – be jealous! wink-wink)

shout out to friends you love -- and amazing blog/site that has a month long (october) celebration all about us gals & the unique bond we share with other chicas closest to us!
contests, twitter parties, and giveaways to name a few – check it out and follow along!

shout out to dexter -- season 6 premiers tomorrow night and i could just pee my effin’ pants with excitement.
lurve me some dexter morgan!
shout out to planet fitness – i paid ya for a year of my life whilst kickin’ & screamin’ – now i owe ya a lotta pride. i cannot say enough good things about my gym! (well other than the pervy dude with the knee-high tube socks that sings to himself and snorts the entire time he as the gym and always seems to jump on the elliptical next to me?)
shout out to me (i can give myself mad props) – for saying no to mac & cheese, ice cream, and skittles this pms week – all of which I woulda normally sucked down like a hoover! (although I didn’t pass on the margarita or the sangria – I gots priorities & shit!)

shout out to brianna @ brianna in wonderland who is just the sweetest & one of my newest blog crushes. She was kind enough to bestow me this sa-weet award & I just thank her whole-heartedly for it!
check out her blog & give her some much deserved bloggy l♥ve!

shout out to all my newest (and oldest) followers. i say this often but i truly adore ya’s! you motivate me to own my shit and keep it real and for that i am eternally grateful!

finally…
shout out to my super sexy fella – my main squeeze – the man who *taps that* -- my muffin of stud – my lovah – my soulmate – my bestie with testes
brian
he humors me and my blog addiction/l♥ve and fully supports me in everything i do!
me love you long ass time bri!
mwahsssss with tongue!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

potential lame-ness...

day: 24
my bloggers!

i have no freakin’ clue where this post is going – so bear with me & lemme apologize in advance for potential lame-ness!

i just got home from the gym a little bit ago and had a really great workout!
well – minus the douchebag two ellipticals (i just realized i have been spelling that word wrong for years btw) down who talked on his cell phone for his 20 minute workout.
so rude!

and ya know i am not an asshole – take a call if ya gotta (even though signs are posted asking that cell phones only be used in the lobby) – but to talk 20 minutes so loudly that i could hear you over my earphones with the volume blaring– well then you are just a dick!
that loser made me miss sex & the city and distracted me during my workout – double doozy fucktard!

other than that – gym was awesome!

i did 30 minutes on the e l l i p t i c a l & another 30 minutes circuit training.
yay me!
i am by no means buff – but i swear i feel buff-er.
heh
okay maybe not buff-er --- but definitely strong-er!

tomorrow my younger son, peyton, turns 15.
i know what you are thinking? how could a sweet young thing like myself have a child who is 15?
heh
okay i will stop…

so yeah…
peyton’s b-day and we usually have a big family dinner with cake & ice cream – typcial b-day stuff.
we are still having that – i am just opting to have some healthier options in the mix.
like grilled chicken breast, steamed broccoli, and i got an amazing cupcake recipe (i will share tomorrow with photos).
plus i am not a total birthday party nazi so we are having my son’s favorite homemade mac & cheese (i will be skipping this one) and he loves banana split ice cream by friendly’s.

it’s all about compromise. and honestly, if i didn’t have weigh-in on friday i might partake a little more than the plan in my head. but typically i plot out my menu in the morning and stick to it and am usually really on mark the day before a weigh-in. and i will be plotting fo’ sho’ tomorrow.
i need a good weigh-in this week
(dammit!)

okay peeps – this chick has to take her fluffy ass to bed!
and can i say how fucking awesome you blog-o-sphere people are… truly. the nicest bunch of people i have never met in my entire life.
:smirk:
i could say more but then i would get mushy and shit.
point is : me love ya long time!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

*** thanking google images – unless noted ***

tanning booth confessions vol.2

day: 22
‘ello blogdom!

another oh-so-fun installment of…

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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!

confession…
i can handle getting older – truly i feel 31 and not 41 – but i would so botox the shit outta myself if i could justify such an expense being on a tight budget (ick) and all.
laugh lines look cute on other people.
not me – heh.
and i would so get a boob job too – not a lift – i want these puppies to defy gravity and to look purtier than evahhhh!


confession…
i really think my depression meds (wellbutrin) are not working which in turn makes me feel *not right* again. i was feeling so good for awhile but i feel that *funk* somewhere in me – lurking – just waiting to fuck my day up. luckily i see the doc tomorrow – but ack at the process of getting the right meds and dosage.
so daunting and i am only on round one!

confession…
i got amazing advice yesterday via twitter – basically: fuck calgon, drink tequila!
i think in moderation self-medicating my woes with a libation is a novel idea!
heh

confession…
while i am rockin’ it at the gym -- i still don’t feel that love for working out like some peeps rave about? but i am not totally loathing it either. what i do love is the sense of accomplishment and *i rock balls* attitude when i leave the gym.

confession…
i don’t get the whole twilight thing? even if i was a teeny-bopper i wouldn’t get it? yeah i watch the movies and they don’t suck – but to have so much hoopla surrounding it? i think the books were mediocre at best -- would much rather read some anne rice any day!

confession…
i was asked by a fellow blogger i adore and admire to be featured in an upcoming series and i am elated. not only to be asked but that she liked the piece i wrote.
*does naked cartwheels*
i cannot delve into it too much just yet – not my place – but trust me – when i can – i will be shouting the details from the rooftops of blogdom!

confession…
make-up sex is the best sex.

what do you need to confess to?
off to the gym to get some much needed eliptical time – maybe i am liking it more than i am willing to admit?
bizarrrrrrrrrrro!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

***ROCK OUT with your CROCK OUT tomorrow & i promise it won't suck ass!***

a good freakin' day...

day: 20

nei ho bloggy-sphere!

okay, so i am over my little hissy fit from yesterday.
i get pissy when things don’t go my way…
but eh… such is life.
and yeah it sucks!
but i need to put my big girl panties on and just deal with it!

so i took my frustrations out in my gym…
went last night and today giving me 21 ap’s so far.
i made the eliptical cry!
or the other way around – i don’t recall exactly.
all i know is that my tits were in a puddle around my ankles and i felt pretty fuckin’ good – minus the melted nips and all.

and then i was like to hell with it and brian and i went out to dinner tonight.
mexican dinner!
andalé!
(have i mentioned that i would sell my soul for a good mexican food?)

we checked out a new place as rhode island sucks in the realm of good mexican food. i am seriously thinking of uprooting and moving to the west coast for the authentic mexican food alone.
but i digress…
luckily this new spot rocked balls and we were really impressed!
and yeah, i dipped into my weekly points by a total of nine (big freakin’ whoop!) – but we had so much fun.
surprising they had a vast menu and i ordered a vegetarian plate – spinach burrito (which was too.die.for), cheese enchilada, and a mushroom quesadilla.
sadly it came loaded in a tomato based sauce that had a cheese taste to it as well as the melted cheese on top of everything – and i love cheese, but it was in overload mode. so i basically ate about a 1/3 of the dinner and called it a day.

okay confession…
i opted to sacrifice the food in lieu of a margarita – i have standards you know…
a yummy margarita i might add – and don’t ask how many points – you will cry!
but i had a very plain salad for lunch today in order to have this puppy!
so worth the sacrifice…!
i needed tonight.
wait… we needed tonight!

okay yeah we were home by 8pm – but at least we got out, and i got to let my hair down (literally as i live with it up in a clip 24/7 and didn’t realize how long it has gotten – i need a freakin’ haircut!), chill with my lovah, have an adult beverage, and some yummy mexican cuisine!
win/win/win/win/win

today was a very good day!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

wanna see more photos of my margarita inspired night out?
check out my other blog the purple goddess -- my family/photo blog.