well hello 2012

day 119:
well hello 2012!

this is gonna be a quickie but…
i wanted to at least say merry 2012 to you fabulous peeps out there in the blogosphere!

me & ange -- my bff of 20 years! we have rang in many a new year & it was awesome celebrating with her last night!
(my sexypants hunny -- brian. he's a hottie huh?)

i partied like a rock star last night & let it be re-established that i cannot hang.
i dunno why i even try?
heh.
(at least my shoes were kickin’ ass & takin’ names last night!)

and yes i felt like ass today & i made less than stellar food choices due to being a wee bit hungover – but i tracked every filthy morsel and i made myself workout tonight after an enormous internal battle over should i or shouldn’t i…
for the record – i always should!
and i am glad i did!

i am welcoming 2012 with open arms & an open mind & just happy to be where i am & that life is becoming increasingly better & better by the day!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
*** if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ the rest of my new year’s eve photos & more --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.16

day 117:
tee gee eye eff blogdom!
wow can ya believe how fast this week has flown by?
wasn’t it just xmas eve & here we are on the cusp of new year’s eve.
eeesh time – slow up a bit!

so today was weigh-in/meeting & while i am doing what i do – i have indulged in a cookie or two (or five) this past week – along with some chocolates that just JUMPED into my mouth – don’t ya hate when that happens?
anywho – i was a wee bit nervous. not that i felt like i had gained – i felt great actually – but being the weigh-in after xmas – who knows?
well, i lost 1.8lbs!
wow, just wow!
i have never lost weight around xmas.
never EVER!

last year i gained 7-8lbs in the month or so between thanksgiving & xmas – this year i lost 10.2lbs.
yeah, TEN effin’ pounds!

I am down a total of 23.2 lbs!
Yay!

honestly i owe it to a couple of things…
the sweet tooth challenge…
recommitting to veganism…
tracking every day, every morsel, no matter what!
and
daily (yes, every single day) without fail exercise (my jillian michaels dvds) – even on xmas!

another coolio thing – we got a new meeting locale.
they closed down two locations & brought us all together is one brandy-new, bigger, modern, AWESOME location! (right next door to trader joe’s i might add – s w o o n!)
thankfully i still have the same awesome leader – seems like everyone else got shuffled except for the friday morning & early afternoon meeting peeps.
phew because i flip-flop between the two depending on bri’s work schedule!
i would hate to have to switch leaders!

any of my other weight watcher junkies get a new center????
or are we just über blessed?

tomorrow night brian & i are actually heading out for new year’s eve – for the 1st time EVER together.
no really – we have never been out together for new year’s eve -- we have been pregnant or raising a baby – but now we are ready to rejoin the adult world for one evening.
we are going to my best gal’s house for a little soirree & we are happier than doo-dah about it!
we don’t get out much & never together – one of us is usually home with skylar – but my mom is babysitting – so look the fuck out 2012!

what are your plans for nye?
partyin’ down or on the down low?

well kiddos i gotta get off my ass – i gotta hot date with jillian & my dvd player!

don’t forget to link up!

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as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops!
that’s it – easy peasy!





peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

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weigh-in vol.15 & 16 weeks

day 110:
merry xmas eve eve blogosphere!

so i had a blast last night!

good peeps & tons of laughs – i mean that’s what it’s all about.
and ya know how i swore up & down that i wouldn’t be drinking?
yeah epic fail on that.
BUT…
in my defense – it was at brian’s urging that i relax a little & have a drink if i wanted – so i did.
and i wanted a few!

i can be quite extreme – i am just an all or nothing kind of gal. but he is right – one night out with friends – something i rarely do – is not going to derail all my hard work.
BUT…
it took every bit of me not to raid the fridge when i got home last night & i was famished ALL day today.
pffffft!

but let’s get to my weigh-in.
i had a bad feeling about my weigh-in – not that i have had a bad week – i have stuck to my usual diet & exercising daily – but we went out to eat twice this week & then last night’s adventure.
so imagine my surprise when i lost .4lbs!
not a ginormous amount but a loss nonetheless & i will gladly take it!

this time of year i am content to maintain – so a loss is fan-fuckin-tabulous!

and i got this beauty today...
my 16 week charm!
i have been a weight watcher member & attending my meetings/weigh-in's faithfully for 16 weeks!
w00ts!

and why the big deal about 16 weeks?
well studies show that sticking it out for 16 weeks leads to further commitment & long-time success!
now that's what i'm talking about!

i haven't set any number related goals since i rejoined weight watchers 16 weeks ago EXCEPT to at least stick it out for 16 weeks & not miss a weigh-in and/or meeting no matter what!
i am super proud to say i did just that!

well that's all i got kiddos – i gotta get hot & start wrapping all my gifts!
yeah; ALL my gifts!
yikes!

oh & don’t forget to link up:

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as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops! jump/hop/skip/whatever around & meet new peeps with kickass blogs! leave them a comment to say hi & that ya found them via the no more muffin top hop!
that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

welcoming the light...

day 109:
merry winter solstice blogdom!
did ya know that today signifies the reversal of longer nights & shorter days?
so i ask you…
are you welcoming the light or saying goodbye to the darkness?

i am saying hello to the light!
i am *light*er after all… heh!

in all seriousness – i have given the darkness too much significance in my life – it is time to focus on the light!
so hello light – how the fuck are ya?

okay this is where i gotta show off my new goodies – so hang on…

i wanna take a second to thank jennifer from finding my way in texas -- i won her very first giveaway a couple of weeks back & i received my winnings in the mail yesterday & oh good golly are they amazing.
my daughter lovesssss the hat – i mean it’s a ladybug & absolutely beautifully handmade – what is not to love?
the notebook cover (thanks for the bigger one jenn), necklace & headband are just too freakin’ cute & i am so happy to have won them – you rock balls jennifer!
please take a sec to check out her blog & etsy shop – where you can purchase any of these goodies among others!

and as if one cool package wasn’t enough – i got another from one of my oldest & dearest friends unexpectedly. inside it was this…
20+ years later & she still gets me – even from across the country!
it is perfect & i love it!
thanks marie xxoo!

well kiddos – i got things to do, peeps to see & places to go – oddly enough.
i am such a homebody so going out (tonight is our yule celebration & then we are venturing out for a bit) even for a little while is a HUGE deal for me – and yeah – i am super stoked!
merry yule & i will say adios with the early posting of…

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i was gonna give the hop the weekend off with xmas & all – instead i decided to extend it from today until monday @ midnight.
as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops! jump/hop/skip/whatever around & meet new peeps with kickass blogs! leave them a comment to say hi & that ya found them via the no more muffin top hop!
that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

alive & kickin'

day: 60
(wow day 60 huh?)
‘ello blogdom!

wow… i cannot believe it has been four days since i ran my trap on here!?!

just super busy with halloween…


(can you tell we ♥ halloween?)



celebrating dumb supper & having a seance tuesday night with friends – which was hella cool…



and then yesterday was my oldest son, hunter’s, 17th birthday…

i cannot believe my oldest baby is seven-freakin-teen!
*sigh*

yeah, really busy in my world this week!
and all of it entailed food (wine, redheaded slut shots, candy, pasta, cupcakes, ice cream, steak) – and i fuckin’ ate way more than i should. i swear i have been eating nonstop since this past saturday @ that b-day party i went to for my bestie’s hubby!
at least i made time to do the 30 day shred daily & am still givin’ it 110% – so yay for that much!
can ya believe that today was day 25 already?!?!?!

but yeah – i am still alive & kickin & happy to be doing so…
it hasn’t been my best week food/diet wise but that is life, right?
no matter what -- birthdays, dinner parties, & holidays are gonna happen; epecially this time of year!
it wasn’t one cupcake, one glass of wine, or one slice of lasagna that got me to this point – it was days upon days of over-indulgence & i do not want to be that gal again who eats without purpose or worry.
and i won’t be!

so i ask…
how is everyone else fairing on what is just the beginning of the *holiday season*?

and on a completely unrelated (well kinda) note:
do you know they already have xmas music playing in walmart along with all the xmas trees, decorations, gift sets, & massive displays?
i think that is a blasted shame.
can we please enjoy one holiday at a time?
and last i knew thanksgiving is nestled in between halloween & xmas!
don’t buy into the hype dear bloggy peeps – they are not trying to get a jump on the holiday spirit – they wanta jump into your wallets for the holiday spending because we are just being lead to believe that no matter what we do – it is never enough or too soon.
and i am pretty sure santa would totally agree with me!
*wink*
(sorry for the rant -- just irritates me how commercialized everything is...)

don’t forget to enter my giveaway -- just 5 days left & only 48 entries so far! even if you entered already you can tweet daily for additional entries!

peace, l♥ve & margaritas bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

food-a-pa-looza

day: 49
my supah bloggah’s!

okay first things first – i have been totally outta the bloggy-loop the past two days. busy, a wee bit sick, and we had a random 3 hour long power outtage today?
thankfully – i had just completed my 30 day shred (day 14 bitches!) , was guzzlin’ my water, sat down to track my food & activity on weight watchers e-tools when *poof* no freakin’ power!
we are such a spoiled society – only my 2 year old daughter wasn’t bouncing off the walls.

anywho – so i am wicked behind in reading about all you fabu peeps – but i will catch up.
pinky swear!

plus i see there are has been some major award swappin’ going on & i promise to *pay it forward* asap!

so despite being a wee bit sick (i refuse to admit that i have a full-blown cold) this weekend was what i can only properly deem as *food-a-pa-looza* and i will be lucky to looza any weight @ weigh-in this week after the utter garbage i consumed.
yes – it could have been worse & has many, many, many times in my lifetime. but i did overdo it.
(traditional self-portrait as we head out)
bri & i had a*date nite* (i hate that terminology for some odd reason) last night & went to our favorite mexican restaurant. and while i had another dish off the vegetarian menu it is still drowning in ooey-gooey full fat cheese. plus i had a humongous ass margarita & it is a fuckin’ shame how many points weight watcher makes you count for those.
heh.
oh and i had a nice glass of wine when we got home last night.

then today we went to our favorite chinese restaurant. there again i made better than average choices but ack. i was wayyyyy over daily points this weekend & dipped pretty deeply into my weeklies.
not that i can’t – weight watchers allows me to eat whatever the hell i want as long as i track it & count my points. but here lies the problem when you go out to eat. unless it is some chain restaurant how do you know if you are counting points correctly?
i always have this chicken dish @ our fave chinese place that has a mustardy sauce – their house specialty – and i have no earthly effin’ clue what is made of let alone how many points. so i am guesstimating & praying i come close!
but i do the best i can & tend to over-compensate for a lack of solid knowledge.
and i worked out like a fiend yesterday & today – so i think i am ahead of the game or at least not draggin’ behind too-too terribly.

we rarely if ever eat out two times in a weekend so i will consider it a learning experience & move on!
and what did i learn?
there is no need.
i felt overfull and lethargic for the rest of the day today until i literally made myself get up and do the shred.

we will never stop dining out – we are foodies who love a good meal. but i think our once a week saturday night dining out is enough.

well my luvies – i gotta get my butt to the gym to work off food-a-pa-looza!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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tanning booth confessions vol.3

day: 42
ni hao bloggy-san!
so i just got home from the gym & whilst tanning my buns in the booth tonight i thought to myself…
“it’s been awhile since ya wrote a…”

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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!

confession:
i had way too much fun last night out with my friends @ an show that featured motley crue, vanhanlen, dio, & godsmack tribute bands. and you know i was makin’ devil horns with my fingers – as it was so obviously the thing to do. i have always been a rockin’ chick! heh!

confession:
speaking of rockin’ – i so rocked that cute little dress last night & can you believe i didn’t take a pic. yeah me – the photo queen who documents everything. i honestly didn’t think of it… i was too busy makin’ devil horns!

( i do have this gem of a photo – taken today to document that i survived this nite out wayyyyy better than last week. i am actually upright & combed my hair unlike last weekend… heh!)

confession:
i was so not feeling the 30 day shred today and had no desire to even do it until i randomly tried on a pair of juinor size 13 jeans & they fit. my ass was all over the 30 day shred after that & i went to the gym tonight! as my weight watcher leader tricia say: it’s the best & worst moments that motivate us the most. true dat!

confession:
the past six weeks of hard work is starting to show & people are starting to take notice – even those who see me daily. i have had so many compliments in the past few days it’s unreal. and i won’t lie – i am totally l♥vin’ it! it only motivates me to keep on truckin’!

confession:
sex is a bazillion times better when you feel sexier.

confession:
i had taco bell on the way home last night. it used to be a tradition for my bestie & i back in the day – so we had to. i won’t even lie – that mexican pizza kicked fuckin’ ass & was worth every one of it’s 14 points. yeah i went way over in points yesterday but fuck it – i had a great time drinking & eating the extras – i tracked it – it's not something i do regularly & life goes on!

confession:
i am the worst lurker -- i am wicked behind on reading other peeps blogs! sorry; i am usually all over that!

but did i mention i got into a size junior 13 jeans today?!?!


so there ya have it – no shame in my game!

what do ya need to get off your ta-ta’s?!?!
spill it…
then cross your eyes, make the sign of the devil horns, and drink a double hail bloody mary and all is forgiven…

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

weigh-in vol.4

day: 34
my blog-schnizzles!

i have had a kind hectic weekend (i will get into that later) hence why i am just now getting around to posting my weigh-in results from yesterday’s weekly meeting.
drum roll please…
i lost 2lbs!
can you even believe it?
i was just convinced i was gonna have a gain!?!?! i am telling ya, that scale is squirrly bastard. two weeks ago i was floored by a slight gain & this week i am floored by a sa-weet loss!

(me @ the gym all happy & shit!)
wanna hear the coolest thing about all of this?
not only was i pms’n & all that jazz like a mofo…
i also ate every single one of my points. dailies, weeklies, and all of the ap’s & i earned like 60 last week.
hmmm – maybe those weight watcher folks know what they are doing afterall?
i have said it before and i will say it again: the plan works when you work the plan!
end of story!

so yeah – i was a super-happy camper! i have lost 8.6 lbs total and am only 1.4 lbs. away from hitting 5% -- w00ts!
perhaps this week? if not, definitely the next!

so last night i went out with my friends.
yes me!
to an adult establishment, with other adults, and we partook of adult beverages!

bri stayed home with skylar & i went out – a first mind you.
and before you all get in a tizzy it is not because he won’t let me (ha, as if) i just haven’t had the gumption or desire to do so in a very long time. between being a new mom (again), the depression, poor body/self-image, yadda yadda… that sorta thing wasn’t a priority to me. and it isn’t now even – but sometimes ya gotta get outta the house and run amuck!
and i did…

to be clear – we had a fuckin’ blast! we had some beers, heard a awesome band, danced a wee bit, and laughed our asses off. i needed last night!
i didn’t realize how much i have missed letting loose.
i need to let loose more often.

but i gotta tell ya – i paid the price most of today. i was so effin’ hungover that i actually uttered that eternal promise of *i am never drinking again*.
definitely a top five of all time hangover (and there have been many because i used to be the party girl extraordinaire).
it sucked gorilla balls. and what pisses me off the most about it is that i didn’t really drink all that much. i had about six beers through the course of the night which is more than i normally drink, but certainly not excessive.
this from the chick who could drink many a dude under the table back in the day…

i ultimately had to bite the bullet and run to a drugstore to get some alka-seltzer. it tastes like two day old buttcrack – but man did it work. within an hour i was eating and felt a bajillion times better.

i had to get better and fast – i wasted half the day dying (or at least wanting to) and hunter, my 17 year old eldest son, had his homecoming this evening and we had his girlfriend and her family coming over tonight for photos.
gawd bless alka-seltzer!

lessons learned: i am old, cannot hang, and always have alka seltzer on hand!

will this detour me from going out again?
nope!
plans are in the works for our next adventure… yay!
i will just drink less or stick to wine!

don’t forget to join the hop – no rules and it runs until midnight tomorrow!

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happy weekend!
spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn


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a good freakin' day...

day: 20

nei ho bloggy-sphere!

okay, so i am over my little hissy fit from yesterday.
i get pissy when things don’t go my way…
but eh… such is life.
and yeah it sucks!
but i need to put my big girl panties on and just deal with it!

so i took my frustrations out in my gym…
went last night and today giving me 21 ap’s so far.
i made the eliptical cry!
or the other way around – i don’t recall exactly.
all i know is that my tits were in a puddle around my ankles and i felt pretty fuckin’ good – minus the melted nips and all.

and then i was like to hell with it and brian and i went out to dinner tonight.
mexican dinner!
andalé!
(have i mentioned that i would sell my soul for a good mexican food?)

we checked out a new place as rhode island sucks in the realm of good mexican food. i am seriously thinking of uprooting and moving to the west coast for the authentic mexican food alone.
but i digress…
luckily this new spot rocked balls and we were really impressed!
and yeah, i dipped into my weekly points by a total of nine (big freakin’ whoop!) – but we had so much fun.
surprising they had a vast menu and i ordered a vegetarian plate – spinach burrito (which was too.die.for), cheese enchilada, and a mushroom quesadilla.
sadly it came loaded in a tomato based sauce that had a cheese taste to it as well as the melted cheese on top of everything – and i love cheese, but it was in overload mode. so i basically ate about a 1/3 of the dinner and called it a day.

okay confession…
i opted to sacrifice the food in lieu of a margarita – i have standards you know…
a yummy margarita i might add – and don’t ask how many points – you will cry!
but i had a very plain salad for lunch today in order to have this puppy!
so worth the sacrifice…!
i needed tonight.
wait… we needed tonight!

okay yeah we were home by 8pm – but at least we got out, and i got to let my hair down (literally as i live with it up in a clip 24/7 and didn’t realize how long it has gotten – i need a freakin’ haircut!), chill with my lovah, have an adult beverage, and some yummy mexican cuisine!
win/win/win/win/win

today was a very good day!

spread the bloggy l♥ve, eat your veggies, and love yourself!
xxoo
cyn

wanna see more photos of my margarita inspired night out?
check out my other blog the purple goddess -- my family/photo blog.