weigh-in vol.19

day 138:
tee gee eye eff blogdom!
i’m backkkkkk…

so today was my weigh-in & I really wasn’t feeling it & was pretty confident that i was looking @ a gain. not much but a gain nonethless…

it’s been a bizarro week.
a little funkish & my head just wasn’t in the game.
but i did what i do (tracking, eating good, working out daily) & believe it or not – i stayed the same!
(my actual weight tracker!)

i will gladly take it & kinda nice to know that i can maintain.
(the daily workouts are the key!)(yeah here is my mug -- not my best photo but taken today!)

moving along…
after my rant yesterday about blogger (still being a dickhead to me even after following some suggestions & now won’t let me edit my own freakin’ posts) & how i was considering wordpress… yadda yadda.
well i was playing around on wordpress last night & decided to try and import some things from this blog just to see if i liked it.
i get it all imported and this pops up on my wordpress dashboard:

warning: we have a concern about some of the content on your blog. please click here to contact us as soon as possible to resolve the issue and re-enable posting.

are you fucking kidding me?
wordpress hates me too?

so i was on lockdown @ wordpress all last night & i gotta tell ya – this does NOT impress me.
i realize i am not some g-rated mommy/crafty/sunshine shooting out my ass kinda blog – but am i SO bad that I need to have my content reviewed?!?!?!
just didn’t seem right?
then i got this email this morning…

Hi,
Our apologies. The system should not have done that.
We have removed the warning in your dashboard and sincerely apologize for any inconvenience it may have caused.
--
Anthony
WordPress.com

well thankin’ you anthony!
apparently a fluke but still… i had barely finished importing from blogger and wham-o – shut the fuck down!?!?!
i will stop now.

and i gotta tell ya folks…
despite the whole *lockdown* issue -- i am diggin’ wordpress.
especially with the upheaval of GFC, blogger & google+ going on.
i am still kinda lost about all that!?!
google+ is the new way to keep track of blogs/followers?
i dunno???
if anyone knows for sure – enlighten us dimwits (that would be ME) who are just clueless!


but as you can see i have been giving this blog a little facelift – so i haven’t totally jumped ship yet.
just trying out a new look . i like it – simple & to the point.
i am aiming for a *lifestyle blog*.
i wanna meld my two blogs by continuing to write about weight loss & my journey while incorporating my day-to-day life more.
with that being said -- i thought it better not to have butts & boobs on my header.
but for the record – i ♥ butts & boobs!
A L O T
i will miss them…

another change is that after this weekend i am giving the *no more muffin top hop* a indefinite break. not that i don’t like doing it – it’s just time.

where this blog will go from here – not sure?
but my goal is to make it better!
like the bionic blog!
yeahhhhhh!

before I wrap this up – lemme end by saying that i have THREE birthday parties to attend this weekend. one for my cousin’s little girl (movie theater party – we will be seeing beauty & the beast on the big screen in 3 D!!!!), another for my bff’s daughter, and brian (my hunny) turns 38 on sunday! (that’s right – i am rockin’ that cradle like a MoFo!)
for the record – i am NOT going there where the birthday cake & movie popcorn are concerned. doing so will only lead to utter ugliness!

peace, l♥ve & rock on bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

lazy sunday with pinterest vol.8 : the dream wedding edition

day 133:
between xmas, new year’s & a sick child it has been a few weeks since i have posted but…
welcome to…

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the dream wedding edition!
this is my homage to one of my most favorite addictions/past times – pinterest.
if you are pinhead like me – come find me!


so as i reported earlier this week – i finally fit in my wedding dress -- which is a HUMONGOUS turning point in my relationship.
brian & i are totally committed to one another wedding or not – but i do want to marry him (despite draggin my feet for a year +) & now that i am feeling more confident (and better) in my own skin – let the wedding planning commence!
so this post is filled with wedding perfection in my brain & if money were no object – i would be more than dreaming…
but enough gabbing – let’s get to the goodies!

you’re invited!
something like this would probably rile the family up & be talked about for ages to come… the antagonist is me l♥ves it!
theminted.com

if i were to have my perfect dream wedding it would be outdoors in perfect 70-75 degree weather going late into the evening as dancing under the stars would be a dream come true.
it would be casual, easy going, & most of all FUN!

the ceremony…
definitely outdoors at dusk… i want to say my vows amongst family, friends & nature!
purple fabulosity!
(uploaded by user)

this is heavenly…
(uploaded by user)

my dress…
i am just not the foo-foo princess dress type. i LOVE it on other people – just not me.
these are more my style…

this is about as *formal* as I would ever get & simply because I adore elie saab –- he is the master of gowns. but i still feel like this just isn’t me? oh who am i kiddin' -- i would rock the shit outta this gown... heh!
a tale of four cities

this is very me & very similar to my dress (only mine isn't that short) – even in my dream wedding i would choose my current dress.
(uploaded by user)

i am on the fence where veils are concerned – but if i do decide to go the veil route – this type of veil with the netting is perfection! ( i even love the hair!)
wearable artz – etsy shop

and i MOST definitely will be wearing purple shoes…
dress2sale.com

i am also not planning on bridesmaids as i know that not everyone considers that an honor – heh. but in my dream wedding they would have no choice & i would love something like this! mismatched dresses of the bridesmaid's choice (minus the red though) in the shade of purple & style of their choice.
martha stewart weddings


the reception…
i dream of long tables, all of my guests dining together – NO head table, round tables & seating charts. good music, dancing, a beautifully catered meal (with a vegan option), served by a professional wait staff, great wine, candles, flowers, strings of lights & simplicity…

s w o o n – this is my wedding dream!
style me pretty

dancing outdoors under a lit tree & the stars? yes, yes, YES!
martha stewart weddings

open bar of course– i adore the chandelier hanging from the tree!
snippet & ink

centerpieces annoy me – especially the ginormous tall ones that you have to look around to see the person sitting across from you. i like a more simplistic approach. fresh flowers, white candles, clear dishes & glasses.
style me pretty

i love the idea of individual little angel cakes. i absolutely abhor the whole cut the cake thing & smashing me in the face with my own wedding cake will NEVER happen! no offense to peeps who like that – that just annoys me!
martha stewart weddings

wedding favors WILL be some sort of live plant/flower in a pot that hopefully my guests will plant and/or tend to! my 1st choice would be succulents because i love them so!
the wedding chicks blog

OR…
i could say frig this & let disney plan & do the whole thing & fly everyone i know & love to disney world for the wedding of a lifetime?!?! heh.
disney event photography

like i have said before – i totally lack the bridal gene (although i am pretty opinionated about what i like & don’t like huh?). i love to watch other people go over-the-top but for me that seems obscene? even if money were no option i could never justify $40,000 for a gown & hundreds of thousands of dollars for the wedding itself.
gimme the simple life any day!
(bridal gene or not – this was fun!)

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

another 30 days of kickin' ass (measurements & photos)

day 126:
holla blogdom!

been a couple of days since i posted – but i have had a very sick little girl which resulted in a trip to the ER & her daddy getting sick as well (don’t ask me who was the bigger baby – i swore i would never bash him on my blog… heh). but all is better – both are on the mend & i figure it will only take a truckload of lysol to de-germ my house!
sigh.

in between tending to sick babies i managed to complete another 30 days as a shredhead (aka an avid fan of jillian michaels workouts) which brought me to 90 days of consecutive daily exercise!
yeah..
me!
nine-fucking-tee days!
holy fuckballs!

if ya have been reading along in my daily drivel/diary about my workouts (all located in the shredhead tab above) then you know i kinda be-bopped all over the place with my workouts this past month. i exercised daily & they were all jillian workouts – just not the same & certainly no plan was implemented!
i was afraid it might effect my results but…

not the case at all – these are some of the best results I have had all along!
and if you think that’s amazing – check out the comparison between day 1 & day 90!

it blows my mind that i have done this…
i know it’s corny & i have said it before but…
these workouts have changed my life!

and where do i go from here?
well, today i started this…
i try not to make total assessments on day 1 – but so far i am diggin’ it & i was certainly sweatin’ my balls off afterwards! check out the shredhead tab for more gab…

well kids – i am literally beaten down & i gotta cut this semi-short!
thank you all for the amazing comments you ALWAYS leave me – i read every word but totally am behind in replying. you all rock balls & i adore you!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

well hello 2012

day 119:
well hello 2012!

this is gonna be a quickie but…
i wanted to at least say merry 2012 to you fabulous peeps out there in the blogosphere!

me & ange -- my bff of 20 years! we have rang in many a new year & it was awesome celebrating with her last night!
(my sexypants hunny -- brian. he's a hottie huh?)

i partied like a rock star last night & let it be re-established that i cannot hang.
i dunno why i even try?
heh.
(at least my shoes were kickin’ ass & takin’ names last night!)

and yes i felt like ass today & i made less than stellar food choices due to being a wee bit hungover – but i tracked every filthy morsel and i made myself workout tonight after an enormous internal battle over should i or shouldn’t i…
for the record – i always should!
and i am glad i did!

i am welcoming 2012 with open arms & an open mind & just happy to be where i am & that life is becoming increasingly better & better by the day!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
*** if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander @ the rest of my new year’s eve photos & more --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

weigh-in vol.15 & 16 weeks

day 110:
merry xmas eve eve blogosphere!

so i had a blast last night!

good peeps & tons of laughs – i mean that’s what it’s all about.
and ya know how i swore up & down that i wouldn’t be drinking?
yeah epic fail on that.
BUT…
in my defense – it was at brian’s urging that i relax a little & have a drink if i wanted – so i did.
and i wanted a few!

i can be quite extreme – i am just an all or nothing kind of gal. but he is right – one night out with friends – something i rarely do – is not going to derail all my hard work.
BUT…
it took every bit of me not to raid the fridge when i got home last night & i was famished ALL day today.
pffffft!

but let’s get to my weigh-in.
i had a bad feeling about my weigh-in – not that i have had a bad week – i have stuck to my usual diet & exercising daily – but we went out to eat twice this week & then last night’s adventure.
so imagine my surprise when i lost .4lbs!
not a ginormous amount but a loss nonetheless & i will gladly take it!

this time of year i am content to maintain – so a loss is fan-fuckin-tabulous!

and i got this beauty today...
my 16 week charm!
i have been a weight watcher member & attending my meetings/weigh-in's faithfully for 16 weeks!
w00ts!

and why the big deal about 16 weeks?
well studies show that sticking it out for 16 weeks leads to further commitment & long-time success!
now that's what i'm talking about!

i haven't set any number related goals since i rejoined weight watchers 16 weeks ago EXCEPT to at least stick it out for 16 weeks & not miss a weigh-in and/or meeting no matter what!
i am super proud to say i did just that!

well that's all i got kiddos – i gotta get hot & start wrapping all my gifts!
yeah; ALL my gifts!
yikes!

oh & don’t forget to link up:

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as usual – no rules – link up whatever ya like – even giveaways & other hops! jump/hop/skip/whatever around & meet new peeps with kickass blogs! leave them a comment to say hi & that ya found them via the no more muffin top hop!
that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

i'm a weiner!

day 98:
holla my bloggy l♥ves!

now i have to put this out there: i am blessed; truly.
the blogosphere (fabulous place that it is) has embraced me with more good than ever bad & i have met a core group of amazing people via this medium. amazingness aside – some of them even bestow me blog awards & i can say with full confidence i do not deserve them & simply because i absolutely sucketh @ returning the bloggy award l♥ve!
for that i am truly sorry – i have the best of intentions – i am just a lameass @ actually executing them sometimes. and i admit – i am realllllllly wrapped up in myself lately.
but…
i am trying to reciprocate the kindness & at least acknowledge the coolness you guys generously toss my way.
so with that being said – thank you to tammy @ healthy and sustainable living in today’s world (awesome blog kids!) for honoring me with this award way back around thanksgiving. you are too cool for school!
and also to the adventures of not supermom (this blog is a hoot!) for showerin’ me with this coolio award! you rock balls!
now both awards basically say i have to thank the person(s) who gave ya the award & should pass them along to 15 other deserving blogs -- but we will get to that in a sec.
but the “tell me about yourself award” asks that i tell you 7 things you might not know about me (hence the name of the award).
so bear with me because this is about to get raw & random...

1. i am getting my first eyebrow waxing in a week. can you even believe that shit? the gal who does my nails has been trying to talk me into it for a year & i have just gone kickin’ & screaming! i really don’t have a lot of eyebrows but brian pointed out to me that what little bit i have is *bushy*! upon further investigation – holy fuckballs he is right. at the rate they are going i will look like my great uncle benny if i don’t trim these badboys! i will of course blog about the outcome – but i am so afraid i am gonna look like one of those plastic chicks who has to pencil her eyebrows back on with the 99 cent wet & wild black eyeliner!
2. i am on a giveaway winning streak – i have won uglee (that’s the brand name) pens from daily rant, a $30 gift certificate to eden fantasy from gillian @ a daft scot lass (if you aren’t reading her series – blogfestivus 12 days of xmas – you are missing out!), some sa-weet adult goodies from jana @ boobies, babies, and a blog , some amazing homemade goodies from jennifer @ finding my way in texas (she has an esty shop—go check her out) & just today i won 4 tickets to see disney on ice in boston via robin @ masshole mommy (love her & her blog to frickin’ pieces)! so yeah – santa has come early & he is handing out vibrating cock rings this year! w00ts!
3. I am anal-retentive (actually saying that is an insult to regular anal retentive people as I put them to shame) about how my groceries are bagged. I literally will have a panic attack if things like bread (which I do not even eat) get smashed. And if produce isn’t bagged heaviest to lightest I will show you a side of my wrath that would make darth vadar seem like a pussy. I am not proud of this & it has caused many a riff between brian & I – not to mention the death glare & flared nostrils from hell to the poor cashier who crosses my path with her idiotic bagging skills.
4. brian & i were dating for 4 months when i found out i was pregnant with skylar. yeah – FOUR months. crazy right? but we are still going strong & have come to the realization that we are soulmates because no one on the planet would tolerate either one of us… heh!
5. i worked in a strip club for five years – but a year in a strip club is like dog years so it was more like 35 years…
6. my engagement ring is a 6.15 karat amethyst – which is exactly what i wanted (i love purple & amethyst). i am non-traditional, our relationship is non-traditional, & i am just not the diamond engagement ring type.
7. i don’t drive – it started out because of legal issues (suspended license due to traffic fines) & somewhere in the course of all that i decided that some people are just not meant to drive & i am one of them. i am legally able to drive – i chose not to. and yes, it is a pain in the ass & brian tells me all the time that i need to just suck it up & drive. but it gives me anxiety… so i am a car hermit!

that was sorta random & oddly theraputic!
anywho – so here are the 15 (give or take) blogs i am passing on BOTH awards to!
rock on with your bad ass selves…
flab mountain: from cow to wow
30 before 30
curly girl
75% hippie
illusion
fat girl slim
the middle
i know that’s not 15 – told ya i suck @ this!
but the thought is there – i would give it to ya all if i wasn’t wiped on top of too lazy to format the links… lol!
we’re all weiners!

peace, l♥ve & carpe diem the fuck outta today & everyday bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

just me yappin' my piehole off

day 88:
holy schinkeys it’s december blogosphere!

can ya even wrap your head’s around it?
cause i can’t!
for me, once december hits, xmas season is on!

anywho…
so i technically should have bumped up to level 4 yesterday on the jillian michaels ripped in 30 but i calculated the dates wrong & had 2 extra days to play with (in order to make it an even 30 days) and have decided to use the 2 extra days on level 3 – especially seeing how i just semi-mastered it a few days ago & it is still kickin’ my ass!
seriously…
i was wiped yesterday after my workout.
i dunno if i am just being wimpy, the workout is that hard, or this waist trimmer belt (link takes you to a cool link listing its benefits) i just bought is making me sweat so much that i feel a little more depleted?
(this is the exact one i bought -- $9 @ walmart & it doubles as a heat/ice pack)
i am not one for silly gadgets & initially bought it because my lower back was killing me (thank you pms you rotten bitch) a week or so ago -- it gives support & i wanted to do heat & ice. but i was so amazed by how much you sweat wearing it that i have decided to use it when i work out. i have to admit that it’s really gross when you take it off because it is literally covered in sweat!

anywho – now that i have gone on a whole tangent about my waist trimmer… back to ripped in 30. so because i have 2 extra days to play with & have decided to use them on level 3 – i will be starting level 4 tomorrow – lawd willing.
i hear its “insanity” & i admit that after level 3 & how tough it has been – i am a wee bit terrified.
heh.

the sweet tooth challenge (button & details on the side bar) is going great – day 2 & 3 were rough – literally brian & i sat around daydreaming about all the junkfood we were missing – how effin’ sad is that??? but it’s getting easier – hard to believe tomorrow already makes a week!
i am super curious to see how my w8 watcher weigh-in goes tomorrow & if not eating any junkfood has made a significant difference?

speaking of w8 watchers…
any of my fellow junkies as curious as i am to what changes they will be making effective tomorrow??? i read that no points+ values will change – but the site is getting an overhaul (thank the freakin’ lawd) & supposedly the plan is more *flexible* -- whatever that may entail?
anyone on the in’s & know any dirt?
feel free to dish – i promise myself and the enormous blogosphere won’t spill the beans!

so i have to share a little family trauma/drama…
when brian was around 12 years old he got hit in the mouth with a baseball which damaged his left front tooth. his mother had it fixed a family dentist friend who didn't practice cosmetic dentistry & brian has had a veneer type of thing over the broken tooth for the past 16+ years.
yes – 16+ years!
fast forward to about 9 months ago & all of a sudden the veneer is shifting and dropping. brian goes to see my dentist –who is just wonderful – and she is shocked & appalled by the haphazard *repair* he has & is amazed that he never had an infection from the remaining broken tooth because it is dead, of course.
so all this time brian is supposed to be looking for an oral surgeon that takes our insurance (which sucks when it comes to dental) & of course he has procrastinated his ass off.
then yesterday morning he was brushing his teeth & lo & behold what should plop out into this hand?
yup… the half-assed veneer.
now he gets up at 2am on monday & wednesday for work so obviously he cannot call the dentist, i am asleep, & he has a mini mental breakdown all by his lonesome.
so true to male form – he pushes the veneer back in (ew ew ew) and goes to work!
i received a panicked text & spent most of yesterday locating an oral surgeon that could help him out pronto.
long story short – he has an appointment this morning with our awesome denist to get the impression for a new veneer thingy-ma-bob & will be seeing an oral surgeon on monday.
but all last night he kept singing…
“all i want for christmas is my left front tooth…”
heh – sometimes ya just got say screw it & laugh about the trauma/drama!

have a wonderous day & carpe diem the fuck out of it!

peace, l♥ve & margaritas bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn

ohhhh... & because i was a lazy-ass last weekend due to way too much turkey & pumpkin pie -- gonna set up the weekend hop today! as usual it runs through sunday night & all links -- even giveaways -- are welcome!

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weigh-in vol.11

day 82:
black friday bloggy l♥ve!

before i get down to biz – just an fyi – i will not be posting a *no more muffin top weekend hop* this week due to holiday & all. but it will be back next friday – bigger and badass-er than eva!

in the meantime – here are some other kickass hops to link up to!

here is my friday funny contribution:

indeed -- heh heh!

so onto the subject @ hand – my weigh-in.
i gained 1.8lbs. – the 1st significant gain since i rejoined w8 watchers 12 weeks ago.
am i happy about it?
of course not – but i am trying to think of it as not a *real* gain. i ate a lot of salty, heavy foods yesterday that i normally wouldn’t eat & add on the fact that i am pms’n like a mofo & well 1.8lbs isn’t that bad.
i was prepared for a gain so i am taking it in stride & quite well.
besides gains are part of the process & only fuel my fire to have a better week!
keeping that better week in mind -- my hunny & i are starting this challenge today…
we are aiming for 21 days (rumor has it that is how long it takes to formulate new habits) & here is the list of goodies we are steering clear from…
athough i personally do not see anything overly bad about natural peanut butter & i rarely eat it – so it is not on of my list of no-no foods.
i am not even remotely religious but i just did the sign of the cross & said a mini-prayer to the healthy food gods & goddesses to give me strength as i am a bonafide junkfood junkie!
no really – i am & have been known to skip entire meals in lieu of chips & dip and/or ding dongs with a m&m chaser.
yeah – i am that bad & even 12 weeks in i struggle with my junkfood addiction!
but i am giving it a whirl & i am of the type that if i set my mind to something – i generally achieve it.

why am i setting limitations & depriving myself?
because…



i am ready to have the healthy eating habits to go along with my newfound fitness habits & eating cleaner has been a goal of mine since day 1.
does that mean a snicker bar or dorito will never pass these lips?
ummm no – nor would i want to live a life without fun foods.
but i need to detox & concentrate on fueling my body with healthier foods!
plus i wanna make it through one holiday season at least maintaining & not on the plus side! last year i gained about 7lbs between thanksgiving & xmas & i do want a repeat performance or the tight britches that goes with it.
i fucking love the person i am becoming & am willing to do whatever it takes to aid that new rockin’ chica in any & all efforts.
i am worth the sacrifices!

well i truly hope you all made it through black friday physically unharmed – i know your psyche has to be a bit warped – i warned ya bitches be pepper spray wielding crazy!
(isn’t that just fuckin’ sad – i hope that psychopath gets the book slammed at her but good!)

i stayed home today – no sale was worth it. i have the patience of a flea & there isn’t enough wellbutrin in the universe to convince me to go shopping on this hellish day!

peace, l♥ve & margaritas bloggy peeps!
xxoo
cyn