weigh-in vol.17

day 124:
happy freakin’ friday!

so i had the most unexpected surprise @ my weight watcher weigh-in/meeting today.
not only did i lose 2.8lbs this week but i got my 25lb. charm today!
(ain’t it purty?)
AND i entered into the 170s – fuck, i blasted the door down on the 170s!
i have lost 26lbs & honestly it just blows my mind!

don’t get me wrong – i have worked my ass off – literally – but sometimes it still surprises me that i am actually doing this!
not only have i lost weight – but i am changing my life.
(here i am @ 178.4 lbs -- get used to this outfit – i am superstitious like a mofo & wear the same thing to weigh-in every week…)

i have become that girl who normally would annoy the piss outta me… heh.
i care about what i eat, i workout & love it (98% of the time), & i am passionate about the changes in my life & want the whole world to know!

i needed this awesome weigh-in – i was feeling a little underwhelmed & really wading in some self-doubt because i have been a bit lackluster about working out this week. i do it but I had to talk myself off the *don’t feel like it ledge* more than once & that just isn’t like me. in my defense – mother nature has kicked my butt in half (fucking monthly gift my ass!) & i am just a biznotch & a half when she is rearing her ugly head.
but somehow i pulled it off?
wait a minute…
no, i didn’t just *pull it off*!
despite my lackluster feelings – i DID still workout every single day along with sticking to the simply filling plan (except for nye when i kicked back some vino).
i followed plan & i earned those 2.8lbs by golly!
no need to sell myself short!

this is life & some days this is easier than others.
and some days are better than others…
today was one of the better days & those better days are what motivate me to keep going!
and there ya have it!

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peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

no more muffin top weekend blog hop -- vol.15

day 124:
tee gee eye eff bloggahs!
welcome to…

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rockin’ the hop button is always nice & i über appreciate all of you that do!
and if ya find a new blog that blows your skirt up – be sure to leave them a comment saying you are a new follower & tell them ya found them on *the no more muffin top* hop.
that’s it – easy peasy!






peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
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c'mon baby re-light my fire...

day 123:
happy weigh-in eve blogdom!
(does anyone else feel that way about the day before your designated weigh-in?)

so in case you have had your head buried in the sand for the past week – everywhere you look it’s all about losing weight, getting fit, new year; new you – all that jazz. and i love every second of it. if the 1st day of a new year is what you need to get motivated then yay for you! i commend anyone who takes any step, no matter how small, to changing their life! those of us already on that journey know how hard it is!
which brings me to the topic at hand.
i have also noticed a lot of self-doubt, lack of motivation, people still caught in the holiday rut, & frustration out there in blogdom & beyond.
for those of us already in this – we don’t have the luxury of that *newness* that amps us up those first few days, weeks & months. a lot of us (self included) are kind of in a rut – both with food & exercise.
i am still doing it – but maybe not with the same flare & gumption that i had just a few short weeks ago & i feel some self-doubt floating around in there – eating away @ my motivation.
boo fuckin’ hiss!
i was hitting the gym a few times a week for some extra cardio on top of my daily jillian workouts & that hasn’t happened in weeks due to everyone’s crazy retail work schedules & babysitting issues. but ummm xmas was almost 2 weeks ago & everyone’s schedule has gone back to normal… so what exactly is my excuse?
yeah that’s what i thought – i ain’t got one!
and ya know what – fuck that noise!
just because it isn’t my official day one doesn’t mean that i can’t get re-amped & focused like a mofo again! i am gonna do something(s) different & make it like a day one & get that flare & gumption back!
with that being said…
here is some motivation & definitely some things to think about!
relight that fire & love yourselves out there!
we deserve it!












that's right!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

thoughts on the biggest loser...

day 122:
hump day humps ya naughty bloggers you!

spoiler alert – because i will be talking about biggest loser in detail – so if ya have it dvr’d look away now!
so who watched the biggest loser last night?
i did for the 1st time in many seasons. last time i watched; jillian was still on & michael won – losing an astronomical 264lbs!
now ya’ll know i love jillian --- but the show itself lost it’s appeal.
maybe i am just an asshole but it got to be too dramatic for my tastes & it seemed like they were trying to push the unrealistic/unbelievable envelope by having bigger & bigger people on each season.
but even with that being said – the show is inspirational. i get inspired seeing anyone do things they never fathomed possible – like exercise, run marathons & lose hundreds of pounds.
i love that the trainers don’t give a fuck & push these people to their limits!
for those reasons -- i was compelled to watch this season.
(well that & because there isn’t jack shit on tv this time of year?)

so far (one whole episode – lol) it seems to be more like the show we all fell in love with the 1st couple of seasons. they have a mixture of contestants that range in various weights & ages.
good lawd, one of them even looks like santa claus ferfuxsake!
yeah, santa is on the biggest loser this year!
ya can’t help but to like him & his wife even but…
rant on: i was flabbergasted @ his wife – she is 42 (my age) & she looks like mrs. claus & easily in her 60s & all because she has a head full of gray hair???
unless your name is bonnie raitt & you just won your bazillionth grammy – gray ain’t cool! gray hair is just something that makes me insane.
why would any woman want to look older than she is??? go to walgreens, spend $6 on some miss clairol & cover that shit up! or better yet, take a day to hit the salon & have it done professionally—you’re worth it! rant over.

and i love the theme of this season: no excuses!
i think just about anyone on a weight loss journey can relate to that. i know i had my stockpile of standard excuses.

this is also my 1st time watching dolvett quince (who trained janet jackson & justin beiber btw before biggest loser) who used this phrase last night…
sure to be on bumper stickers & t-shirts before ya know it!
anywho…
finally some eye candy.
i love bob & would choose him a million times over dolvett but dolvett is ripped like a mofo.
holy shit is he ripped!

but bob is my heart – love him!
(not as much as jillian but i got mad love for him nonetheless)
he is my favorite vegan/yoga loving/tattooed/southern/sweet as pie but will kick your ass fella ever!

but let’s dish on ben – the guy who ASKED to be voted off the ranch.
sorry to say this but… he just got lumped into the *dickhead category* by millions of biggest loser fans. just a major no-no on that show.
whatever -- let him go!
but i love how when he was all woozy during his 1st workout & kinda went to la-la land & back – the determining factor was that he didn’t know who bob was.
ha!
“what? you don’t recognize bob harper?
oh you better rest a while!”

my faves so far (which could change at any given moment) – kim (pink/red team) -- the former professional wrestler.
no really, she was a wwe diva @ one time as well as a fitness model!
i am super curious to see if & how she gets back into shape!
(she is 5’8” like me too!)

hopefully i won’t tire of the show & will watch it faithfully & give my two cents throughout the season.
because i know you guys are just dyinnnnnng to know my opinion…
*insert sarcasm*

anywho – there ya have it – my half-assed thoughts!
mwahs to all the real biggest losers out there who live it every single day!
you know who you are!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

TO-DO list...

day 121:
howdy ho bloggy world!

so i have kinda been teetering with the idea of new year’s resolutions.
i know they are EVERYWHERE & mine aren’t that unique that i gotta make some ginormous production outta them.
so instead i will make a TO-DO LIST for 2012!

before i lay it on ya – i gotta say something. i feel like i am at an advantage over most peeps out there in the world. i am already living & tackling what is usually my top TO-DO’s!
lose weight
work out more
eat healthier
drink more water.
check. check. check. and check!
yay – that feels pretty fantabulous to be ahead of the game for a change!
so this year i thought i would write a more frivolous list that doesn’t focus on the same old stuff…
here goes…

the chunky goddess TO-DO LIST for 2012!
1. vlog. i have been thinking about it for some time & i think starting soon it will be a regular feature – you lucky ducks get to see my mug & hear me blab all live & shit!
2. experiment with my cooking more. i get in food ruts & can be quite lazy when it comes to cooking for myself. i need to get a little more adventurous so i do not get bored with the foods i am eating. i gotta a bazillion cool recipes pinned on pinterest – bout time i start cookin’ em up!
3. grow an herb garden & not kill it this year!
4. try at least one local vegan restaurant!
5. make it a point to keep in touch with all of my friends – phone calls, emails, whatever. i am such a lame-o friend lately…
6. take more videos. my camera takes beautiful 1080p hd quality movies – what the frig am i waiting for?
7. find a part-time job. i never thought i would still be looking but i am. and no, i in no way regret leaving my job & i may not be looking as hard as i should either…
8. hire a personal trainer to take me to the next level where weight training is concerned! i wanna be ripped – not in a chyna/steroid/horse face sorta way – but i want some definition & peeps to know i am an ass-kick workout fiend!
9. be more spiritual – i am fallen off my path a bit & i am missing that magical feeling.
10. always trust my gut – it has never steered me wrong!
i am late on the resolution/intentions/goals/TO-DO list ball so i won’t ask the obvious – but i will ask what one frivolous thing that has nothing to do with weight loss do you hope to do this year?

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

tagged

day:120
i got tagged…

i know some people hate these sorta things & moan & groan about them – but i fuckin’ love this shit!
so when the ever-lovely-yet-kickass rachel from because i have to -- one of my fave blogs of all time & the winner of my 1st ever (and only) giveaway – tagged me – i was happy to oblige!
so here goes…

here are the rules:
1. post these rules.
2. you must post 11 random things yourself.
3. answer the ques­tions the tag­ger set for you in their post.
4. cre­ate 11 new ques­tions for the peo­ple you tag to answer.
5. go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
6. no stuff in the tag­ging sec­tion about ‘you are tagged if you are read­ing this.’ blah blah blah, you legit­i­mately have to tag 11 peeps!

even an easily befuddled bitch like me can handle that…

11 (more) random things about me:
1. i love the ufc but don’t let brian know how much i really like it otherwise it would be the only thing we ever watched… heh!
2. my name (cynthia) means *moon goddess* & i love that
3. i would get plastic surgery and/or botox in a new york minute if i could afford it & screw anyone who thinks its vain. damn right it’s vain & i totally own that shit all day long!
4. i was born in memphis, tn
5. when i was a kid i was convinced i was adopted & threatened to pack my holly hobby mini-suitcase & run away to find my *real family* all the time -- true story.
6. i own about 75 pairs of shoes (and i recently downsized!) – all heels (4” & higher) minus one pair of uggs & my workout shoes. even my flip-flops got height!
7. my super power is that i am a human lie detector – ask my kids & all my ex-boyfriends… lol!
8. i never had a date all through high school – i was just so insecure & shy. i completely changed the summer after i graduated high school – i dropped some weight & let my hair grow long & suddenly had more self-esteem than one 18 year old gal should have… heh!
9. i never thought i would have kids – let alone 3! now i wish we could have more!
10. i have been a photography freak since i was 10 years old & got my 1st camera – the instamatic with the cube flashbulbs! i used to take pictures of my cats & the neighborhood dogs… lol!
11. i am mere months from turning 42 & STILL dunno what I wanna be when i grow up & it pisses me the fuck off!


11 questions from rachel…
1.what is your favorite midnight snack? i try to not eat too-too late but i am a total evening grazer & usually it’s either popcorn or cereal!
2.if you could go anywhere right now, where would you go? the four seasons hotel in bora bora – look @ these private villas! who wouldn't want to be here???3.what is your favorite movie from your childhood? anything disney – my parents would always take my brother & i to see whatever disney movie was out @ the drive-in – this was way before vcr’s & dvd’s – when you actually HAD to go to the movies to see a film.
4.do you have any tattoos, and if not do you want to get one? i have 4 tattoos & am dying for some new ink – i want something elaborate & pretty big!
5.what is one food that you will not eat under any circumstances? i am a southern gal at heart but i will never eat grits – ewwwww!
6.current obsession? stripes! especially black & white & if they are chevron i am even happier!
7.favorite smell? i love the smell of coconut! it makes me think of summer & warm tropical places with ginormous pina coladas!
8.something that gives you the giggles every time you see it. i am such a sucker for those stupid text convo’s you see all over the place. i know some are fake but they crack me the fuck up – especially the *when parents text* ones… heh!
9.what is your favorite flavor of ice cream? coffee – yum! when they come out with an awesome vegan version i will be happier than doo-dah!
10.what is your favorite brand of lingerie? i love the marilyn monroe intimates line – it’s a modern take on vintage styled lingerie & it fits marvelously! a lot of leopard print in this line & i am ALL about that – matter of fact i am wearing a leopard & black bra by them now!
11.are you wearing shoes right now? yup – my awesome purple & grey saucony’s that i ♥ so freakin’ much!

The 11 lucky buggars I am taggin’…
1. ellen from from flab to fab
2. maren from from cow to wow
3. kerry from curly girl
4. bailey from the middle
5. helly from fat girl slim
6. miss april from 30 before 30
7. gillian from a daft scots lass
8. jennifer from finding my way in texas
9. alana from fractured fairy tales
10. miss mama from mommy bags
11. susan from 75% hippie

my 11 questions to you!
1. what is your middle name & the story behind it?
2. what is the best concert/show you have ever been to?
3. favorite perfume/body spray?
4. would you ever have plastic surgery & if so what would you have done?
5. what is your biggest fear?
6. who do think is the most annoying celebrity right now?
7. who is the funniest person you know?
8. favorite disney princess?
9. someone (other than spouse/partner) that just melts your butter big time?
10. favorite form of exercise?
11. what is your dream profession?

there ya go – hope ya have fun with it & no worries if ya don’t play along!
merry monday bloggers!
peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

well hello 2012

day 119:
well hello 2012!

this is gonna be a quickie but…
i wanted to at least say merry 2012 to you fabulous peeps out there in the blogosphere!

me & ange -- my bff of 20 years! we have rang in many a new year & it was awesome celebrating with her last night!
(my sexypants hunny -- brian. he's a hottie huh?)

i partied like a rock star last night & let it be re-established that i cannot hang.
i dunno why i even try?
heh.
(at least my shoes were kickin’ ass & takin’ names last night!)

and yes i felt like ass today & i made less than stellar food choices due to being a wee bit hungover – but i tracked every filthy morsel and i made myself workout tonight after an enormous internal battle over should i or shouldn’t i…
for the record – i always should!
and i am glad i did!

i am welcoming 2012 with open arms & an open mind & just happy to be where i am & that life is becoming increasingly better & better by the day!

peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn
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a reflection on 2011: the year i got selfish!

day:118

so this is the dilly – 2011 started out like 2010 which started out like 2009 & so on & so on.
big ambitions & very little motivation.
i can sit here & list a bazillion reasons but ultimately i believe that my inability to be okay with putting myself 1st has been my downfall all along.
no really – hear me out.

this year my life, my health, my sanity, my relationships, & my overall well being were in jeopardy.
i hit a wall with so many things & was left feeling overwhelmed & defeated in just about every aspect of my life!
after years of trying to self-medicate with just about every form (mainly food) possible -- i finally realized that i needed help with my depression & i needed to make that a priority.
i know it’s cliché but admitting ya got issues truly is the 1st step to recovery.
and girlfriend (that be me) be drownin’ in her own shit & shit!

once i got over the depression hurdle that is when i had an epiphany – i cannot be the best mom, partner, friend, daughter, & human being until i am okay with ME. and i cannot be okay with ME until i make ME the top priority in my life over EVERYTHING else.
and I mean EVERYTHING -- kids, spouses, partners, friends, relatives, jobs, faith, commitments – all of it!
all those things you put ahead of yourself no matter what because you believe that is how to show your love & devotion, what is expected of you, makes you a better person, & we (especially women) are taught that being selfish about ourselves is a bad thing.
and sorry kiddos but doing all of this will NOT EVER lead to true happiness.
life is too effin’ short to be unhappy – so i decided to be happy.
that’s when i kicked it into high gear & made some decisions that changed everything…
i left my job -- the work environment was toxic on so many levels & no amount of money is worth being miserable every single fucking day! could we afford it? helllll to the no! but i also couldn’t afford to loathe something so much that i wanted to punch something or someone hard. really hard!

and i rejoined weight watchers – i decided that i am worth the added expense, time, effort & energy it takes to truly commit to weight loss & getting fit.

just those two vital decisions & how they bettered my world transcended into other bigger/smaller decisions & actions that have made my life increasinly happy!
and when mama’s happy – EVERYONE is happy!
truly.

in 2012 – i plan to keep it rollin’ & continue on my current path. i will never be that girl again – the one who lets life come 1st .
i come 1st no matter what!
and anyone who doesn’t like it can kindly step to the left & fuck off.

peace, love, & toasts to a fuckin’ fabulous 2012!
xxoo
cyn

**** disclaimer – i am in NO WAY telling anyone to run out & quit their job or to do anything drastic for that matter. i am only relaying my life experiences & what changes helped me. and as always i recommend EVERYONE see their doctor before beginning ANY weight loss/diet/exercise regimen!

weigh-in vol.16

day 117:
tee gee eye eff blogdom!
wow can ya believe how fast this week has flown by?
wasn’t it just xmas eve & here we are on the cusp of new year’s eve.
eeesh time – slow up a bit!

so today was weigh-in/meeting & while i am doing what i do – i have indulged in a cookie or two (or five) this past week – along with some chocolates that just JUMPED into my mouth – don’t ya hate when that happens?
anywho – i was a wee bit nervous. not that i felt like i had gained – i felt great actually – but being the weigh-in after xmas – who knows?
well, i lost 1.8lbs!
wow, just wow!
i have never lost weight around xmas.
never EVER!

last year i gained 7-8lbs in the month or so between thanksgiving & xmas – this year i lost 10.2lbs.
yeah, TEN effin’ pounds!

I am down a total of 23.2 lbs!
Yay!

honestly i owe it to a couple of things…
the sweet tooth challenge…
recommitting to veganism…
tracking every day, every morsel, no matter what!
and
daily (yes, every single day) without fail exercise (my jillian michaels dvds) – even on xmas!

another coolio thing – we got a new meeting locale.
they closed down two locations & brought us all together is one brandy-new, bigger, modern, AWESOME location! (right next door to trader joe’s i might add – s w o o n!)
thankfully i still have the same awesome leader – seems like everyone else got shuffled except for the friday morning & early afternoon meeting peeps.
phew because i flip-flop between the two depending on bri’s work schedule!
i would hate to have to switch leaders!

any of my other weight watcher junkies get a new center????
or are we just über blessed?

tomorrow night brian & i are actually heading out for new year’s eve – for the 1st time EVER together.
no really – we have never been out together for new year’s eve -- we have been pregnant or raising a baby – but now we are ready to rejoin the adult world for one evening.
we are going to my best gal’s house for a little soirree & we are happier than doo-dah about it!
we don’t get out much & never together – one of us is usually home with skylar – but my mom is babysitting – so look the fuck out 2012!

what are your plans for nye?
partyin’ down or on the down low?

well kiddos i gotta get off my ass – i gotta hot date with jillian & my dvd player!

don’t forget to link up!

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that’s it – easy peasy!





peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

if ya’ll feel like takin’ a gander --- go check out my mama/photography blog the purple goddess & follow along!

no more muffin top weekend blog hop -- vol.14

day 116:
thirsty thursday bloggers & welcome to…

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rockin’ the hop button is always nice & i über appreciate all of you that do!
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that’s it – easy peasy!



peace, l♥ve & carpe the fuck outta the diem!
xxoo
cyn

ps.
i love you all.
the comments you left me on my last post just made me smile – you get it & you get me!
yay!
sorry i didn’t reply personally – i am just so unorganized for time this week?