Wednesday, November 16, 2011

tanning booth confessions vol.4

day 73:
hola blogaritas!

been awhile…
so let’s have a go @ it shall we?

misadventures of a chunky goddess
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the random thoughts that permeate my sick twisted little brain whilst standing buck-ass naked in a tanning booth for the longest ten minutes of my life…

in situations like this you have no choice but to come clean and say it like it is…
so here goes – light a candle, chuck life the bird, and fess the fuck up!

i hurt my knee.
i didn’t wanna admit that i did – but i so did. it is a bazillion times better than 2 days ago but it has taught me a lesson. while my body is doing things i never thought capable; i am not invincible.

i have been having yet another food-a-palooza this week.
whiskey tango foxtrot?
i weigh-in on friday’s & i swear if i run amuck on the weekend it sets the tone for the remainder of the week. i am thinking i need to do away with my anything.goes.on.saturday mentality. i can control it some weeks but others (
this one) i am struggling to get back on track & leave the crap food alone.

i suffer from depression & am medicated for it.
but wellbutrin has nothing on endorphins!
true fucking story!

i am trying the biotin & it was not $3 a bottle as they claim on pintrest.
it was $8 for 100 but i am willing to give it a whirl.
from what i hear it makes your hair & eyelashed fuller & shiney. also helps with nail growth – but i get mine done so no biggie there for me. i will keep ya’ll updated.

there is a lot of buzz about the
paleo diet floating around & i am sorry but anyting nicknamed *the caveman diet* doesn’t appeal to me & i cannot help but feel like this is just another *diet*.
i get the premis & some of it actually makes a lot of sense & is very similar to clean eating (
no processed crap) but omitting all gains baffles me?
didn’t we all do this diet in the 90s – it was called atkins i believe?
or the sugar busters diet?
maybe i am misinformed but it sounds very similar?

i start week 2 & level 2 on the ripped in 30! (
tab above tracks my progress)
i have no clue what to expect because i never preview the workouts.
but as always – i am a wee bit nervous. just when you think you have one level licked – bam – time to up the ante & fuck your whole world up!
but that’s what i love about these workouts. they are 20-25 minutes long, never boring, & highly effective!

some days i exude confidence almost to the point of appearing cocky – other days i second guess every little thing i do…

a random dude flirted with me the other day. it was so bizarro.

my bestie told me that i was looking very *skinny bitch* the other day.

i have been totally slacking with my photography. i want a new camera in the worst way & i let that want hinder me sometimes. it’s truly not the camera & i need to remember that!

we need to move – like yesterday.
my family – all five of us – are temporarily (
ha - 3+ years later) living in my grandmother’s house where my mom also lives. yeah 7 peeps in one little house that even though we pay bills for isn’t ours. and we are slapped with that fact daily. sometimes hourly.
i love my extended family (
mom & grandma) but we need to be elsewhere!
the economy here is bad – no really we have one of the worst unemployment rates in the nation & i just read a news report that said we would be one of the last three states to jump back from this effin’ recession.
in 2017!
we need to move – but how do you move if you cannot find a decent job to save up money? it is a vicious fuckin’ cycle & i have had just about enough of it.
our situation could be a gazillion times worse – we do not go without anything -- but i guess i just never thought we would still be exactly where we were when we decided to just stay here for a little while so we could save money for our own house.
we have done that but with the fact that there is no job security in this blasted state – it is just scary! and i know some people are making it work & trust me i envy them – i guess i cannot help but wonder when we will get our break in life?!?! we are not asking for a handout – far from it. i would just love bri to find a job where he is paid his worth & recognized for how hard he works.
okay -- i will stop – i could write a novel about this & how it contributed to my need for wellbutrin.
*fake smile*

so there ya have it – no shame in my game!
what do ya need to get off your ta-ta’s?!?!
spill it…
then cross your eyes, make the sign of the devil horns, and drink a double hail bloody mary and all is forgiven…

peace, l♥ve & margaritas bloggy peeps!


Mariebop said...

WOW! I didn't realize that your mom and g-mom lived with you. That is one crowded house. I know of a job opening... but you'd have to move to Delaware. :P

You'll get your break. Sometimes it just takes longer than we'd like.

Rachel said...

I started taking the Biotin too! Let's hope it works!

Maren said...

I like you a lot. I like the honesty and the whole package. You rock, so much!

Mommy Bags said...

Skinny Minnie Skinny Minnie *clapping hands together* wow you need some time out head over to Cali. You sounds pretty packed in your casa :0)

Daily Rant said...

Bless you for living with your mom and grandma. I know I would not be able to do it - there is a really good reason why I live in Michigan and my mother lives in Florida - Ha!
Anywho- I need your mailing address for the UGLee pens you won from my giveaway. Shoot me an email when you can mattsmomma123 at gmail dot com

Anonymous said...

Who knew a tanning booth could double as a confessional? ;-) Hats off to you, Cyn; you're dealing with a lot! Here's to ch-ch-ch-change for the better. :-)

Mrs. Tuna said...

Shit, you must be living in Arizona with me.

Ducky said...

Must find out more about Biotin. And I really need to add The Shred to my collection. I'd like to try it!